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  • #9337
    thebfunk
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    Hi all. My name is Bryan. Some might remember me, some may not, and to the rest of you hello. I have a story, as of of you do, but I don’t want to get into right now. Basically I had the dream of being a professional poker player. I wanted a life with tons of money and freedom. Instead, I got tons of debt. Tons. This doesn’t give me any freedom. Well this morning I decided that last night was it. The way I have lead my life makes no god damn sense. If I want a life of freedom and financial stability I’m not going to get it gambling. Some people may get that, not me. Now I face a hard reality of catch up….I’m 32. I have a wife and baby I love. They don’t need a degenerate dad chasing a pipe dream ruining everyone’s life. I don’t need that life. So here is to me saying **** my past. I can’t change it. I can’t reverse it. I can be a man and fix it. There, I said it. Now I need to do it.
    Bfunk out

    #9338
    Dunc
    Keymaster

    Hi Bryan
    Its so good to read that your going to commit to a new way of life where gambling doesnt play a part.
    Im looking forward to following your progress
    Take Care
    Harry25 year poker player, 25 year Hierarchal fool, 25 year ego boost…  Intellectualisation was my down fall, simplicity was my salvation

    #9339
    thebfunk
    Participant

    Thanks Harry. I’m preparing for my ups and downs, but I’m choosing to focus on a better future. Instead of thinking about poker and quick money. I’m thinking about a long process of saving, paying debt, and thinking about a retirement someday. No matter what I try to talk myself into, I can’t have any of it with poker. In fact, I probably can’t have anything at all with poker.
    So today I choose to look at the big picture. Today I will accept the damage I’ve done, and look at a future I can still have.
    Bryan

    #9340
    thebfunk
    Participant

    Well it’s day 3 after my blow up. I’m hoping its my final blow up, but I will never know. Anyway today I will not place a bet. It will not help me. I dug a whole with gambling that has given me many problems. Gambling won’t fix them.
    Good news is I do have other things in my life to be thankful for. Those are the things I’m focussing on today.
    Bryan

    #9341
    vera
    Participant

    Congrats on your marriage and baby Bryan! A new life to give you every reason to quit gambling. Take it one day at a time. I’m trying to get myself back on track too after a few crazy expensive gambling episodes! Hard to teach an old dog new tricks!
    Do you go to GA, Bryan? ‘Could be just what you need to get some immediate support.
    Keep posting!

    #9342
    thebfunk
    Participant

    Today is another day. I had rough moments of frustration last night. I guess it it expected.
    I figure it’s natural. The thing is, this time I’m not going to focus on negatives. I’ve wasted to much time being negative. I’m going to do what I can to have a great weekend. I hope you guys do as well. Be strong.
    Bryan

    #9343
    thebfunk
    Participant

    Happy Sunday everyone. I don’t really have any new updates, but I’d like to keep my recovery fresh in my mind. I am not going to gamble today. I’m going to enjoy my family, and concentrate on positives in my life.
    Bryan

    #9344
    thebfunk
    Participant

    Monday. New week. Starting my week strong. I’m not gambling today. I’m going to stay positive. I’m going to eat right, and excersise a little. Thoughts of extra debt are haunting me a bit, but the only thing I can do is accept. No need to waste energy fighting the truth. I will stay on track. Slow and steady
    This week I will move forward to improve my life.
    Bryan

    #9345
    cat438
    Participant

    Bryan, WTG on making the decision to stop accumulating debt and throwing away your money.  Gambling is a horrible addiction and we all think we can win big and all our problems will be over.  As you say it is just a pipe dream and I am glad that you are realizing that.  Your baby is not a pipe dream, but one of the most precious gifts you will be given.  Unfortunately even though we decide to stop gambling the thoughts and urges will come, and when they do and you feel like gambling, take a look at your baby and ***** your blessings. You deserve a gamble free life and your baby deserves a daddy that is there for them.  One day at a time is all we have to focus on!!!One day at a time my sweet lord…

    #9346
    vera
    Participant

    Well done Bryan. It takes a long long time to reduce debt but every time we gamble we add to that debt and frustrate ourselves more and more.
    Stay focussed!
    I’m hanging in this month!
    Do or die!

    #9347
    thebfunk
    Participant

    Today is 1 week. There have been ***** where that is an accomplishment. Right now it isn’t as much. My schedule doesn’t allow me to gamble everyday. I would typically play twice a week. The thing is today I don’t want to gamble. Everytime I type here is a reminder gambling hurt me, and won’t help me. This path will help me.
    Bryan

    #9348
    thebfunk
    Participant

    Last night was a little rough for me. Not with urges to play poker, but I was *****. It wasn’t fair to my family that I let a **** that probably stems from me losing money affect their night. It wasn’t anything terrible, but still not necessary. As for today, I will not gamble. I will strive to have a better day than yesterday.
    Bryan

    #9349
    thebfunk
    Participant

    Just typing to keep not gambling fresh in my head. Today I will not place a bet. Had a couple rough **** swings, but time heals
    Bryan

    #9350
    vera
    Participant

    keep focussed Bryan!
    You are not alone!
    Gambling sucks!

    #9351
    thebfunk
    Participant

    I made it through the weekend without any urges. I’ve been contemplating a lot of things in my life recently. Mostly thinking of where gambling has taken my life. Is it to late to make things right? I know it’s not, but sometimes it feels like it is.

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