[Cynthia 712]

Hello fellow sufferers. I’m down to my last 1000 that I can borrow. Counting the minutes until I can borrow it. I’ve lost $35,000 over covid. Then I have to confess all to my family. It will break their hearts. If I manage not to gamble I can get the money together to cover some of the mess I’ve made in a few days but I’m so out of control, I’ll probably lose that too. I’m selling my Fathers gold coins and I hate myself for that. I’m scared to death. I cant seem to find the higher power I need. I’m terrified.

[i-did-it]

Hi Cynthia

Perhaps you could make some meetings.

There are groups on here some nights and also local and online GA meetings I was where you were a year ago and I managed to stop with the right support – you can too.

Keep strong.

Put barriers in place so you can’t  gamble . My bank card for example is a new one with the back numbers scratched off so I can’t deposit online. You will get lots more ideas on here –

Just keep in mind that you can stop – people stop every day ! Keep posting .

[dunc]

Hello and thanks for starting a thread in the Gambling Therapy forums

Here at Gambling Therapy we pride ourselves on being a caring and diverse online community who can help and support you with the difficulties you’re currently facing. We understand that this might be a tough time for you, particularly if you’re new to recovery, so come here as often as you need to and participate in the forums, access online groups and connect to the live advice helpline if you need one to one support. We’re in this together!

Here on the forum you can share your experiences in a safe, supportive and accepting environment. The beauty of writing it all down is that you can take your time and you will be creating a record of your progress that you can look back on if it ever feels like you’re not moving forward. So, share as much or as little as you like but do try to stick to keeping just one thread in this forum so people know where to find you if they want to be updated on your progress or share something with you.

As well as the forums New Members are invited to join Charles in the New Members Practical Advice Group On Mondays at 21:00 (UK) and Thursday at 19:00(UK)

And on that note….

I’m going to hand you over to our community because I’m sure they will have some words of wisdom for you 🙂

Take care

The Gambling Therapy Team

PS: Let me just remind you to take a look at our privacy policy and terms and conditions so you know how it all works!

[dunc]

Hello and thanks for starting a thread in the Gambling Therapy forums

Here at Gambling Therapy we pride ourselves on being a caring and diverse online community who can help and support you with the difficulties you’re currently facing. We understand that this might be a tough time for you, particularly if you’re new to recovery, so come here as often as you need to and participate in the forums, access online groups and connect to the live advice helpline if you need one to one support. We’re in this together!

Here on the forum you can share your experiences in a safe, supportive and accepting environment. The beauty of writing it all down is that you can take your time and you will be creating a record of your progress that you can look back on if it ever feels like you’re not moving forward. So, share as much or as little as you like but do try to stick to keeping just one thread in this forum so people know where to find you if they want to be updated on your progress or share something with you.

As well as the forums New Members are invited to join Charles in the New Members Practical Advice Group On Mondays at 21:00 (UK) and Thursday at 19:00(UK)

And on that note….

I’m going to hand you over to our community because I’m sure they will have some words of wisdom for you 🙂

Take care

The Gambling Therapy Team

PS: Let me just remind you to take a look at our privacy policy and terms and conditions so you know how it all works!

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[Cynthia 712]

Thank you for your kind words. . I have had  so much pressure today. Had an appt with the jeweller- selling my jewellery for scrap value. I’m in total shock as I come to terms with the devastation of my finances. I’m terrified, as my jewellery was my last source of emergency money. I owe Visa 35,500$. My limit is 36,000$.  I’m sick. Before I started gambling really bad again I had it down to 17,000$ ( even though it should’ve been at 0 but I gambled all covid and a little before) 18,000$ later in one month . I think I’m the most terrified because I think if I had money, I’d probably be gambling now. I didnt quit because I’m strong, I quit because I had no more source of funds. I can’t seem to find the higher power, or strength, like the time i quit 7 years ago. Then it was for my children but they’re grown now and independent. I will pray and try to get some sleep. I’m coming down from a few month bender, like an alcoholic I guess. I was gambling every 3 days or at the most every week or ten days. 

Positive today-

1. I will sell my much loved jewellery to ensure I do not bounce checks, bills and have money to run my home.

2. I have self excluded from the casinos I play.

3. I do have a few hundred left, I have  not gambled that.

4. I am 3 days free. Honestly I couldnt tell you how many days Ive been gambling free, I’m in such shock right now.

Going to try and sleep. Ty again. 

[i-did-it]

Well done on your three days Cynthia.
nAdd as many barriers as you can.
nAdd free gambling blocks to your internet devices .
nOnce I even had to “drown” my iPad.
nDo everything possible to stop.
nA supplement which helped me a little was NAC.
nGoogle it and see what you think.
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nYou deserve to be spending all that money on you .
nYou can stop – remember that.

[Enough808]

I can relate to your struggles and having had to sell something i valued deeply myself to help cover credit card bills. It is a painful lesson for sure. I hope you can continue to stay gamble free and recover financially over time. We are all rooting for you

[Enough808]

I can relate to your struggles and having had to sell something i valued deeply myself to help cover credit card bills. It is a painful lesson for sure. I hope you can continue to stay gamble free and recover financially over time. We are all rooting for you

[Cynthia 712]

Thank you, all. I appreciate all words. I miss my meetings, which are cancelled bc of covid. They helped me so much last time.

[Cynthia 712]

Ty. I read something that said “treat your triggers with love”. Im trying to listen today to that. Ty. You people who answered and are trying to help. Its nice to talk to someone who knows and does care. Good things for you kind people. ?

[charles]

Hi Cynthia,
nIf you miss your meetigns then check this link out.
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nhttps://gamblersinrecovery.com
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nIt is for GA zoom meetings around the world. You might even find your local one on there 🙂 Alternatively you can connect to one pretty much 24/7 with the different time zones.
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nWe also have live groups here. Click on “Support Groups” and check out the full schedule.
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nHope this helps.

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