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6 December 2019 at 12:18 pm #53380Seanraj4731Participant
Good day all
I am 37 currently on 91 days vacation here in Trinidad and Tobago. On December 5 2019 i have gambled and lost over $6000 on roulette machines and these machine are everywhere you go in the street corners bars casinos etc even right next door to where i live there is one. I have been struggling to stop gambling over a period of time and i find myself going again. i am facing a demon head on and i am gonna win this battle. i am gonna conquer this monster in my mind. Today Friday 06th December 2019 I am going keep this
journal. It is a downward spiral that i am facing my wife is fed up and she decided she had enough and she filed for divorce. now i am left alone to fend for myself.
I will be losing my son to this horrible addiction. yes we tried therapy counseling etc. never remained committed and it failed. Now I see myself in this trap
not wanting to leave the house to go anywhere. My wife was fed up of all the lies and stealing I did over the years in that destructive addiction. i understand how
she feels yet I am compel to go and gamble next door at that roulette machine. I admit i have a gambling problem. I admit It is a weakness. its has power and the
mind cannot with stand it. I have been faced with alot of words that breaks my spirit and it feels like there no hope for me. I observe the way gambling does to
myself as it pertains to health and wellbeing. Heart diseases and diabetic problem are on a rise. I have not distracted myself away from gambling I need help in
those areas like a child i need someone to pull me out of this rut. Yes I am 37 but the mind feels to be a child to help myself to overcome this. I will stay on this forum
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21 December 2023 at 9:21 pm #185954Seanraj4731Participant
Today 21st December 2023
Four years ago this journal help levitate the mind from crazing the habit. Yes still free from it all. Very thankful for the support received from this website. This gambling element has many in a trance where the mind is no longer ur best friend but ur worse nightmare. The destructive manner had it become the joy it took of life whereas to fabricate stories to lure ppl in feeding u the fuel to continue fulfilling the urges. Yes the mind had a big role to play when it is hooked on this habit. 4 yrs and 15days free.always giving thanks -
22 December 2023 at 12:41 am #185961kinParticipant
Congratulations on the 4 years gamble free time!
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24 December 2023 at 5:27 pm #186081sarahluna88Participant
I’m happy to hear that 😊👍👍👍
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