9 May 2013 at 11:14 pm #9930
I’m back posting again. It’s Carole under a new name. Back to my routine of cleaning, dogs, and grandchildren. We have a bear climbing into the metal dumpster at the end of our lane. Danny has seen it and so has one of the renters. Got into the Jodi Arias trial in Phoenix on the day the prosecution did its closing arguments. That was past exciting to see the people I have watched on TV from the start of the trial over 4 months ago. Nancy Grace hugged me after she finished her show. Bought the book The 5 Love Languages at the airport, which I’ve been wanting to read. Today is my 3rd attempt at evicting one of my renters. Today I went to clean the renters’ house, and in my bathroom was a woman brushing her teeth, who explained to me that her name was Nicole and that my renter had let her stay with him, as she said she needed a "place to crash." The renter is married and a person who frequents strippers. I had to vacuum all the glitter off the floor in his room. This guy has boundary issues. Danny goes back to work tomorrow morning. My 8 year old granddaughter had a classmate share today that his step-father killed himself 2 days ago. I’m going to have my 2 granddaughters on the weekend for a sleepover, and am going to take them to the local fair. Hope everyone is well and gamble free. Carole10 May 2013 at 4:03 am #9931lizbeth4Participant
Hi Carole, I posted on my thread to you before I saw your new thread. I am okay, just having a bad day, keep thinking of Hubby. Tomorrow will be better. Sorry to hear that your Granddaughter had to hear of her classmate’s step fathers suicide. The child probably needed to share and talk to someone. OMG, Your renter and his stripper friend need to leave. You have your hands full. Take care.Seize all the good things in life10 May 2013 at 12:27 pm #9932bettieParticipant
Glad you had such a good time.
Being at a well know trial is not something I could ever imagine doing. You are so brave just to go do things. I still find myself paralized with fear when it comes to "unknown" things! I am sure I mentioned I am a tourest in my own town.
Off to am early Dr appt in about 45 minutes-he will decide if I go back to work tomorrow or in another week.
Hope to talk soon!
bettie10 May 2013 at 2:16 pm #9933paul315Participant
Originally posted by desdemona
I’m back posting again …
Good morning Desdemona aka Carole,
It is good to see you back posting. Good, although not entirely good for you in all ways, to see you speaking of problems other than those of gambling. Living a more normal life has its ups and downs; but they are not near as devastating as the dispair we add on our own by making wrong choices involving gambling. And as with the character your new name represents, all may not be marry but you fight off the bad by continuing to strive for and hold onto the good.
God’s speed. Stay strong. LarryThanks to my Higher Power, My 3G's – God, GA, and GT, "Day Two Is Another Day Behind" and with the help from all I hope to continue to remain gambling free.10 May 2013 at 3:58 pm #9934
(((Bettie))) (((Larry))) (((Liz)))- thanks for your kind posts! I do have many fears as you won’t find me jumping out of a plane or bungee jumping. But when it comes to things I love, like true crime, I’m in there!! It’s a need in me to find out why people do such despicable things to other people, as well as a need to see justice served, and for that perpetrator to be safely behind bars, so that they can’t hurt others. The evicted renter came over last night with a big bouquet of flowers and a card begging to be able to stay, but I told him I wasn’t doing this with him anymore. I refused the flowers and card but I did give him till Saturday 7:00 pm to move, so he can find a place. Now if he had brought me a big box of chocolates……………….. I need to go clean the renters’ house and launder some of their bedding. Carole12 May 2013 at 7:53 pm #9935pParticipant
Hi Carole 🙂
I am so pleased to see you back here and posting again… sometimes people never return again so i am so happy to see you here. I have missed your posting. Hope that gambling demon is staying away from you and just cant say how happy i am that you are back
P12 May 2013 at 10:05 pm #9936
Dar ((((Carole)))) great to see you back posting as you have been missed. So sorry that you had all the problems with the renter. You be careful as you never know with people as they can be vindictive so just be careful. I think the fact that he could not go away quietly speaks volumes about the type of person he is. It sounds as if he wanted to control the situation and he was going to show you. It was interesting that the Police were not going to do anything about it until you mentioned phoning the company he worked at and also the *****. I can understand what Danny means by having his brother come though as then it shows him that you have other males around the place. I am so glad that you and Liz had a good visit. Take care, talk to you soonOne day at a time my sweet lord…13 May 2013 at 4:30 pm #9937
Thank you (((Friends))) for your supportive posts. I’ve been doing well and been busy with mostly cleaning and laundering bedding since I got home. Cat- I can’t believe that the police said he wasn’t doing anything criminal so they weren’t going to escort him off my property, until I said that I was going to call his employer. He’s a total control freak and he thought I’m sure that he was going to beat me at my own game. I have another renter who is a foreman at the same company and who works with Rob. He said that he had a little talk with Rob yesterday, and told him to stay away from my property and that the company would take a dim view of his actions towards me. Summer has arrived here. The leaves are blooming and it has been hot. Wednesday I am driving my granddaughter to her mental health appointments. My daughter will come over and do what ***** to be done at the renters’ house, and make sure the dogs are taken care of. Tomorrow I am having my winter tires changed out to my summer tires. No gambling urges but need to stay on guard and not access any money. It’s a crazy disease because even though I don’t enjoy gambling, I still have done it. Go there hoping to win some money, and then feeling stressed out when the machine keeps eating my money so fast, hoping to win back the money I have lost, and occasionally winning it back, only to lose it again, and then go get more money to continue gambling well past the point of exhaustion. Who in their sane mind does that?? Carole1 June 2013 at 5:42 am #9938nevaParticipant
Your granddaughter is a wise young woman! Good for you in doing some self-care and rewarding yourself…you deserve both.4 June 2013 at 1:18 pm #9939
Hi Carole, I have not seen you post for a few days, but I am presuming that you have been busy with the garage sale. I am sure that you are happy that it is over. I don’t think people realize how much work they are. I hope that it went well. I really miss when I come here and don’t see any posts from you. I had a great visit with my grandsons, but I noticed that I felt a bit down afterwards as I was missing them. We did a Skype on Sunday so that has helped again. We are selling our trailer that we bought a couple of years ago. The site we had it parked at was right on the water, but it was a small camp site with only about 8 trailers and very remote and we are thinking of getting one out East close to our son, his wife and our grandsons. We will have to sell this one first and then we will decide. Please post soon to let us know you are okay. Take care Carole!!!One day at a time my sweet lord…4 June 2013 at 3:31 pm #9940
Thank you (((Liz))), (((Cat))), and (((Neva))) for your kind posts. Sorry to say I gambled yesterday. It was a deliberate choice on my part, as I had to go into the bank to get enough money to gamble with. I had originally had an appointment for 3:00 for my eyelashes and I was out of there by 3:45 and my bank closes at 4:00. I thought the bank would be closed by the time my appointment was over as it usually takes an hour, as they attach longer individual lashes to your own lashes. My plan had been to got to walmart after my appointment and pick up cases of water. Prior to the appointment I had spent several hours cleaning the renters’ house. I wanted some "relax" time away from grandkids as they are in and out of my place throughout the day. Not a good choice on my part but it is what it is, and today is a new day. I told my husband about it on the phone, and he didn’t get angry or make derogatory comments. He is home tomorrow to go away on a golfing trip with a friend in southern Alberta. Today I will make it to Walmart as I will take a grandchild with me. Having my coffee and then off to do more cleaning and laundry. Carole4 June 2013 at 5:46 pm #9941AnonymousGuest
Hi Carole: I have a feeling I didn’t thank you for your lovely post on my thread a while back. If that’s the case, please accept my heartfelt thanks. I’m sorry to hear that you gambled. Your honesty and quick return to the forum is commendable though. Having a slip, in itself, isn’t so terrible. It’s what it does to us for the long term that worries me. I’m hoping that this will just be a one-off for you and that you will head off any resulting urges with great success. Even better, I pray that you will have no urges … that you’ll find it was the same old, same old and would have no desire to return in the foreseeable future. Sending you hugs and thoughts of strength. RG5 June 2013 at 3:23 am #9942nevaParticipant
Way to get back on the wagon. It would be wonderful if we never gambled again but we’re addicted and the best we can do is limit the damage should we decide to gamble. I know you’ve done that by placing limits on your ATM withdrawals so you couldn’t have gotten more money than you went in with. Recovery isn’t an all or nothing thing. You’re making progress and working recovery the best you know how…and that’s something to be proud of. Sherry5 June 2013 at 12:24 pm #9943
(((Carole))) it is amazing how this addiction stays with us all the time. You have so many barriers up to protect yourself from getting cash so when you drew out the cash you did limit yourself to the damage as you could not access more cash. It is good that you are coming on GT and admitting your gambled as you are being honest with yourself and others. I think you are making yourself more accountable by posting here, and telling Danny that you gambled. I know that it is not easy. I also know that for me if I went once then I would be feeding the addiction and once would not be enough for me. I would be going back again and again and fighting to get in recovery. I don’t know if you still do your calendar with the black X when you gambled. I did that all of last year and I still have it. I was looking at it the other day and there were more nice bright green Xs on it than black, but October did not have anything on it as it was a bad month for me. I am sure if you did a calendar that you would see a big difference from when you first started recovery. Wishing you a happy and gamble free day because you are so worth it!!!!One day at a time my sweet lord…5 June 2013 at 3:01 pm #9944
Thank you (((Cat))), (((Neva))), and (((runninggirl))) for your kind posts. I am feeling overwhelmed though I am not complaining because I enjoy family around. I’m just not used to having family around fulltime. My oldest granddaughter is staying in my spare bedroom and she works her summer job and comes home in the evening, so I am not getting my alone relax down time I am so used to having. Danny’s daughter and three of her kids have been here 3 ***** this week while she cleans out the holiday trailer they just bought. So grandkids have been running amok everywhere. I am finding the amount of work with the renters and my own grand central station to be overwhelming. My dogs are constantly being let in and out, along with the mosquitoes. Weeding flower beds is so behind. Danny gets home mid afternoon and he isn’t going to be happy unless I get some cleaning done here before he arrives. I’m not getting enough sleep as barking dogs and a certain 4 year old granddaughter wake me up early. I just have to manage a day at a time till my daughter and son-in-law get possession of their house, which supposedly will be June 14th. I am just venting, not complaining. I know my daughter is finding it hard living in a camper and having to drive her 8 year old to school and to extra-curricular activities. I do look after the 4 year old while she is gone to the gym, as she ***** to go to keep her stress level down. Guess I’ll just attack some of this cleaning now that I’ve had coffee. Carole
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