I’m feeling really positive this morning!! I went on the topics forum last night the subject was “choices” I have reflected on it!!
I have made the choice to move on with my life with or without my CG!! Don’t get me wrong I’m not about to throw him out, I will support him through his recovery by having his bank cards etc and be there to listen to him!! But if I want to be truly happy only I can make that happen. I’m not prepared to sit and wait for CG. If he wants the same as me then he has to make that choice himself and keep up. If I want something I’m going to get it even if it means I have to wait a bit longer!! I know I will gave better days than other days but I’m not going to let gambling beat me!! As I deserve more and something has finally clicked and made me realise that I cannot control CG he is in control of himself the same as I’m in control of me!!!
Today is the 1st day of putting myself 1st.