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Hi Sad and thanks for your post….I will look into the “Setting captives free” site, provided it is a bit more user friendly than GT!!
I’m an idiot with computers and technology so I felt chuffed to have mastered the old GT site and now the rug has been pulled from under my feet….made 3 attempts to join the chat this evening…locked out! I can’t find anyone’s thread and when I post, 50% of my attempts are in vain…so if you get this, its a cyber miracle!
I went on a BAD binge lately…cleaned out…I was in a casino in Dublin…found myself looking at the other “clients” (eegits!) and thinking “I wonder by any chance would that woman be “Sad” or “G” (another) ex GT CG…I hope I will never gamble again. I realise NOW the damage it has caused in so many ways….If you get this post consider yourself very lucky….most of them vanish!…here goes! -
Sorry to hear of your last binge… i had a similar episode on my last relapse though it lasted months not days.. that was the way i found rock bottom. It was nothing but misery, heartache, anxiety and pain and of course financial loss that i will pay for for a while to come. The posting here is working fine now. If you cant get to the end of the old threads you just go to the bottom of the page you push last on the page on the persons thread then re scroll to the bottom.. The threads are much easier to follow when new as there are not as many pages to go through. Dont give up on giving up gambling Vera and dont give up on the site, it jast takes getting used to.
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Hi Vera,
The course certainly seems to be working.. Kinda has given me my brain back into my control. Feel I have a choice now. Before it felt like I was under hypnosis… Like gambling was out of my control. .now I am able to think things through. Hope you are doing well Vera. Think about you lots..
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Nice to see you posting again (((sad)))! I’m curious as to what course you took that is making you feel like your thinking is clearer. Carole
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Hi Desdemona, I did a Christian course on line. I am not pushing Christianity on everyone but I will share my experience with you. I had reached breaking point .. what was different was that I had given up on even trying to stop. I just could not. I was thinking this is me for the rest of my life. This has me beat. I have tried and cannot stop.i I went on line and spoke with a pastor who recommended Setting captives free website..the higher stakes course. After two months i feel free. I no longer feel that compulsion to gamble …it used to feel like my mind was being controlled by something outside my body. I spent every second planning gambling, planning how to get more money to gamble, planning lies to cover up gambling and in actual fact not so much time gambling because my money ran out so quickly. I often had thoughts of suicide. I did the course, followed it to the letter, had a few set backs early on but returned anyway and it has been nothing short of a miracle. I do get tempted to gamble but don’t feel compelled to do so. I can rationalise if I spend fifty on gambling I will have to do without something else. It’s like a cycle has been broken. It has worked for me and I believe thousands of others. I am having to trust in God and not plan miracles for myself brought about by gambling. You know the ones where you will buy happiness for everyone you know once you have just got that big win.. my mind feels healthier than it has in years. I am not counting days of freedom like I did in the past because I don’t feel that everyday is a huge struggle. My mind is not preoccupied with gambling so i would not even remember to count. I hope others try this course and get as much from it as I did.
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Well i am so glad to see that post and to read that the course has helped you so much, that is wonderful!!
It is so nice when we dont have that constant obsessionp
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Dear (((sad)))! I signed up to do the higher stakes course today on the setting captives free site. Thanks for the suggestion! Carole
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Hi Carole, that’s really good news. I really can’t put into words how life changing this course has been for me. I hope it helps you also. I have just woken really early, not because of fretting and stressing about gambling and money but because I feel so free and am looking forward to a full day of Christmas preparations. Like I said I still get tempted to gamble but it is so mild. Kinda like the temptation to have another slice of cake. I can rationalise whether to take or leave it. Gambling does not control me anymore.
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Has anyone else noticed the forums are still really quiet since the new site. Also messages don’t give correct times so maybe they look busier than they are . Eg, I put a message on last night before going to sleep about one in the morning and now ten hours later it says it was three hours ago. This means the site looks busier than it actually is. I still prefer the old site !!
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So it is Christmas night. About ten o clock. Dinner went great. Turkey and ham sandwiches well received. But I am kinda lost. The usual Christmas night card game is on downstairs and I have absolutely no desire to join in. I have lost the taste for it. The smokers and drinkers are in another room and my son is engrossed with his new laptop . I am in a family full of people but alone. But I am happy. Sometimes I get swept along with the crowd and feel I must join in. Tomorrow I won’t feel guilty for gambling,wont have a hang over ,wont regret what I’ve said through drink. Tomorrow I will have another great gamble free day to look forward to.
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