23 July 2023 at 3:23 pm #179842no1gamblerParticipant
How a bookmaker has destroyed my life and left me with uncountable loans
I began at 2018 where I will be going to betting shops and book games
I was even beating once because I was dragging computer mouse with a man who slapped me and hit me constantly yet I didn’t give up wish I should have not knowing that it’s a sign from God that what the future holds for me in betting is suffering.
Then I am getting more addicted now It’s way worse that I had to sell my phone and I have lost everything to betting
I believe there is no hope for me because I tried and can’t stop, i am tired of losing and I don’t have a bright future anymore.
I had to borrow money from 6 different banks
Now I am left with nothing even selling my phone, now I use the rest to play bet again and still lose it all
I will be talked too anyhow and that I have nothing to lose because I have lost it all I still have to look for a lot of money if I can’t find itpraise (the guy who borrowed me my school fees won’t stop disgracing me
I know that I can’t stop even if I win millions and I have never been happy for once since i have started playing this bet
It has made me lose all my life saving ,my phone ,my school fees even the love of my life
I am now depressed with days left to sort out my bills which will result to countless disappointments and disgrace
Which I have no hope on finding the money that I lost I am lost and can’t find my way out of this one
I call on almighty Allah to help me
Even though he has tried for me I don’t have anything anymore than to sell all my possessions
Nobody is giving me work anymore and I repeat I have nothing again
All this is happening to me because I am greedy and I can’t accept failure I always want more and more which I will end up losing it all .
I am at the peak of bringing shame to my family my self and I am running mad because I don’t have any job and I can’t stop betting
because I believe that it got me into this mess and it will take me out which I am wrong
I want to stop now but can’t because I don’t have any way of seeing money to fix myself
I wish I have a Time Machine which I can go back and tell myself to stop or I just wish I sleep and all this is a dream or I don’t want to live anymore because death is better than disgrace
I use to say that if you kill yourself that you are a fool but you are not I am sorry for saying that people are going through a lot the moment you know that you are alone that God is not coming through for you anymore you will wish death upon yourself that is the stage I am right now.
I am done for and I have no hope anymore
I can’t figure a way out of this and I have lost my way
Now thinking too hard and believe that someone is behind all my misfortune I don’t know who I offend but I believe Allah will come through for me
There is no hope for a gambler than loss and loss
I am a loser and don’t deserve anything
That is the picture that gambling pictured into my head 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
- This topic was modified 4 months, 1 week ago by Antonio. Reason: erasing quantity of money and name of bookmaker
23 July 2023 at 3:25 pm #179859AntonioModerator
Welcome here and thanks for starting a thread in the Gambling Therapy forums.
Gambling can take a big toll on us and I am sorry to hear how this is making you feel. I can only tell you this can be overcome, no matter how it seems right now.
Here at Gambling Therapy, we pride ourselves on being a caring and diverse online community who can help and support you with the difficulties you’re currently facing. We understand that this might be a tough time for you, particularly if you’re new to recovery, so come here as often as you need to and participate in the forums, access online groups and connect to the live advice helpline if you need one to one support. We’re in this together!
Here on the forum, you can share your experiences in a safe, supportive and accepting environment. The beauty of writing it all down is that you can take your time and you will be creating a record of your progress that you can look back on if it ever feels like you’re not moving forward. So, share as much or as little as you like but do try to stick to keeping just one thread in this forum, so people know where to find you if they want to be updated on your progress or share something with you.
As well as the forums New Members are invited to join Charles in the New Members Practical Advice Group on Mondays at 21:00 (UK) and Thursday at 19:00(UK)
And on that note….
I’m going to hand you over to our community because I’m sure they will have some words of wisdom for you 🙂
The Gambling Therapy Team
3 August 2023 at 7:24 pm #180228charlesModerator
Hi no1gambler, You can stop gambling I promise you. I am not a believer but if there is a God/Allah then he did come through for you – he brought you here where you can get support.
I suggest posting in the My Journal Forum where you will read many sytories similar to your own, you will get more support and feedback there as well from others.
You have mentioned “wishing death upon yourself” so i need to give you this link. https://befrienders.org/ There is always someone to talk to and there is a lot of life after gambling.
I look forward to readaing your progress in the My Jounral Forum and hopefully I will get to talk to you oin one of the groups here as well. Keep posting.
4 August 2023 at 4:14 pm #180244sparkle93Participant
Hi no1 gambler. Trust me I know what you’re going through. I spent months chasing gambling losses and ended up losing even more.
Don’t allow gambling to paint a picture of you being a failure, there’s hope and you will get out of this and be healthy again.
I relapsed time and time again, I’m still paying off loans that I got but even the loans will be done some day. Don’t give up on life. L
Don’t let this addiction kill you. There’s so much to live for.
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