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Even when I make $100 deposit and run that up to $1500 I don’t cash out and find a way to burn through that money.
nEven when I play poker, I realize being a winning player is not enough, I want to put all the money in my account on the flip of one hand.
nEven when I win I think about how much I’ve lost in total and feel compelled to gamble more as I realize I haven’t won.
nEven when I go through days where I overdraft my account
nEven when I feel like throwing up and not believing “how bad I ran today”
nEven when I see my health declining
nEven when I want to punch the wall or break something
nEven when I just want to take every dollar I have to my name and put it all on one hand of blackjack to come out “victorious” because screw gambling I’m not going to lose!
nEven when I spend all day gambling and come out a loser?
nEven when I can’t get my deposit through online and I don’t do anything else until it goes through.
nEven when I started taking out loans so I could gamble “without worry”
nEven when I decided I’d keep gambling until i won, and when I won I gambled until I lost.
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nEven when it all seems like I’m a problem gambler I want the casinos to know, as Mark Wahlberg said in the movie “The Gambler” (2014):
n”I’m not really a gambler!”
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nI quit.
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nI quit self-destructing because I’m worth it.

[dunc]

Hello and thanks for starting a thread in the Gambling Therapy forums

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