10 July 2013 at 10:42 pm #9385chloe1969Participant
Hi my name is Chloe and I have been gambling since young as I was exposed to horse racing. I am now 44 years of age and have lost over $200,000 mainly in blackjack. As my family help me get out of debt I excluded myself from the casino and it was great. But this could not be sustained, as I was thinking about gambling frequently and on a daily basis. Somehow my deluded mind thinks that I can recover some of my losses.
As such out of desperation,I started playing poker machines as I haven’t banned myself from that. As you would have guessed this soon spiralled out of control. I then attended a gamblers anon and again after 3 meetings I thought I had overcome this problem.
The gambling returned. On one had I know that gamblers anon will be able to help me but I feel too embarrassed to return.
Recently I got a small bonus of $8000 and within a week I lost $2000 in pokie machines.
I know this has to stop but as I am typing, my mind is still thinking of the machines with their fancy sounds. Especially the sound of free spins. I have utterly lost control and I humbly ask for forum members to help me overcome this sick behaviour. I can’t do it myself anymore, in fact I never did as periods of abstinence were few and far in between.
I hate what I am doing to myself and I know that if this doesn’t stop I will lose everything, my family and friends and eventually my house.
This is a desperate cry for help. I know I can only succeed with your support. Please help me.
With much gratitude,
Chloe10 July 2013 at 10:51 pm #9386chloe1969Participant
Hopefully this will be day 1 of abstinence…if I can get through today it will be so good11 July 2013 at 8:05 am #9387DuncKeymaster
Hi Chloe, A Warm Welcome to Gambling Therapy
Having found us you have also found a diverse community who can help and support you on your recovery journey.
Here on the forum you can share your experiences in a safe, supportive and non-judgemental environment and by reading others stories am sure you will see that you are very much not alone in this addiction
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25 year poker player, 25 year Hierarchal fool, 25 year ego boost… Intellectualisation was my down fall, simplicity was my salvation
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