10 November 2022 at 12:57 pm #166830
Hello again,i posted here roughly 2 weeks ago because i wanted to stop gambling but today after 2 weeks of being clean i relapsed,i went to casino with my last money and lost it all.I cannot describe how i feel right now.I feel anger,i feel that i betrayed my family that i dont have power over my own actions and all of these are harsh truth.Nowadays i cant remember my life before i started to gamble,it seems that all good memories have vanished.I dont remember when was the last time i had good laugh.It is really fascinating how one life can be changed so much because of of some slots.
Now after some time i realize that i have serious issue thats impacting my life in various areas.I became depressed,not willing to go to work,relationship with my girlfriend is deteriorating because of my actions,and the worst thing of all is im hiding all of this from my loved ones because im scared of their reaction because im the last person they expect to be gambler.Winning money doesnt make sense now,i just play to feed this urge and thats it.Today i decided even with more courage and strenght that i will not gamble,for my family,my girlfriend and for me.
10 November 2022 at 1:27 pm #166838DuncKeymaster
Hello and thanks for starting a thread in the Gambling Therapy forums
Here at Gambling Therapy we pride ourselves on being a caring and diverse online community who can help and support you with the difficulties you’re currently facing. We understand that this might be a tough time for you, particularly if you’re new to recovery, so come here as often as you need to and participate in the forums, access online groups and connect to the live advice helpline if you need one to one support. We’re in this together!
Here on the forum you can share your experiences in a safe, supportive and accepting environment. The beauty of writing it all down is that you can take your time and you will be creating a record of your progress that you can look back on if it ever feels like you’re not moving forward. So, share as much or as little as you like but do try to stick to keeping just one thread in this forum so people know where to find you if they want to be updated on your progress or share something with you.
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5 January 2023 at 1:27 pm #168799tomodogParticipant
I have the exact same feeling, today is day 0 for me. I know you can do it.
6 January 2023 at 3:20 am #169271Cruising247Participant
Unfortunately, the majority that come to this site has experienced all the feels that you are currently experiencing.
Saying I’ll stop today is so easy to say, but following through takes everything in us.
I actually feel like there’s something wrong with me. Why I can’t be normal, why I can’t gamble a little while and go home. Unfortunately, it’s not that easy for some of us, even when I’m on the top, I don’t stop until I lose it all (plus all the other money I can get my hands on at the time (ATM).
I Know it’s possible to stop, because of the success stories I have read on this site.
I know it will take a lot of hard work, but let’s work towards feeling the way we did before gambling took over our lives.
Good luck my friend!
6 January 2023 at 10:50 am #169280
Wish you all best Tom!You started,thats the first step,keep going.
6 January 2023 at 10:54 am #169281
Hello Cruising 247.
I started questioning myself same as you do.I never experienced relapses related to drugs because i never used them nor alchohol.I always hear stories that gambling is one of the worst addictions out there.They compare it to drug addiction so now i understand why is so hard to quit.
We are here to fight for us,for our families,to be better humans,all of us can be that,and i believe we will achieve it when time comes.
Wish you all the best,good luck to you too.
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