15 November 2015 at 2:21 pm #7217BENNYGIRLParticipant
I am a addicted person. Unfortunately I have a not so good past from when I was young. I abused alcohol but was not an alcoholic, I am a recovering addict, Prescriptions, Now it seems I have stopped everything and gambling has come back out. I say it came back out because years about I binged from time to time with gambling. My husband has showed me the 20 questions and I have answered Yes to 11 of them.
The bottom line is that I am very sneaky, I lie and I hurt everyone around me. My husband is frustrated as hell at me. I lie and tell him ill stop then I find myself doing it 3 hours after I state that. I have a small business were I deal with cash. I lie and tell my husband I made a certain amount and then stop off to get a card with the money i skimmed off the top. I understand that there will be people that tell me to go to group. I have been down that road before with my drug abuse and it wasn’t for me. I went to a psychiatrist that did help but unfortunately I stopped, got sick and my addiction of pills started again. I have been clean of that for 8 months and I feel great but now like i stated its the gambling that has come out. I had a run of 15 days where I blew 1,800 stopped for 3 days thought I learned my lesson and its coming out again. I had a huge fight with my husband last night over $25 i spend on a online casino 4 days ago. When the fight was over I was so frustrated at him I did it again for $50. I need help.
My husband told me about this site as he is at his wits end with me. He stated that he received so much feed back from non gamblers and gamblers and he has learned a lot but I am not listening. This is a cry for help from me. I would appreciate any feedback or help from everyone. I actually feel good getting this off my chest.
PLEASE SAVE ME………………………………16 November 2015 at 8:50 am #7218DuncKeymaster
Hello and thanks for starting a thread in the Gambling Therapy forums
Here at Gambling Therapy we pride ourselves on being a caring and diverse online community who can help and support you with the difficulties youre currently facing. We understand that this might be a tough time for you, particularly if youre new to recovery, so come here as often as you need to and participate in the forums, access online groups and connect to the live advice helpline if you need one to one support. Were in this together!
Here on the forum you can share your experiences in a safe, supportive and accepting environment. The beauty of writing it all down is that you can take your time and you will be creating a record of your progress that you can look back on if it ever feels like youre not moving forward. So, share as much or as little as you like but do try to stick to keeping just one thread in this forum so people know where to find you if they want to be updated on your progress or share something with you.
And on that note….
Im going to hand you over to our community because Im sure they will have some words of wisdom for you 🙂
The Gambling Therapy Team16 November 2015 at 6:17 pm #7219charlesModerator
Hi Bennygirl and welcome to the forum.
I would recommend copying your post to the My Journal Forum and starting a thread there. It’s a busier forum and you will get a lot of feedback and support there. This Forum is really only for those arranging to “meet” in the open Groups we have here.
I would recommend the groups to you as well. The “Open Groups” can sometimes be a bit hit and miss as there isn’t always someone there, hence this forum, but all the other types of groups are moderated so you will always find somsone to talk to live there.
read the otehr thread in teh My Journal Forums as well. You will read a lot of stories similar to your own, you will also see the success stories and what has helped others.
One thing you will see is how barreirs can help – for instance you can get a blocker for your PC that will stop you visiting any online gambliong sites.
Anyway, i don’t want to say much more here, please open that thread in the My Journal Forum and you can start telling us about the positive thigns you can put in place.
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