[stopchasingjackpots]

Since the age of 23, the first time I got a taste of slot machine victory, I have been a gambling addict. It is so hard to type those words, because I’ve used every excuse in the book to tell myself I wasn’t an addict. That stops today. I’m 41 now and I’m done feeling this way.
Writing is my escape. I penned this poem a few weeks ago. I’m sharing it with this group because I know now, for the first time in my life, that I’m not alone.

A solitary thrill
Fleeting in ashes
I breathe again at dawn
Anxious for the epiphany
That shatters with the light

Crawling quicker each time
It pulls me back to hell
Eternal in its success
Bleeding the promised life
Turning my glitter to dust

Lurking all this time
A shadow they don’t see
The show’s too damn good
Perfected slight of hand
They’ve never seen the fall

I have to get back now
Before I crack the facade
Revealing broken trusts
A spotlight on my shame
Known to all instead of one

[Dunc]

Hello and thanks for starting a thread in the Gambling Therapy forums
Here at Gambling Therapy we pride ourselves on being a caring and diverse online community who can help and support you with the difficulties you’re currently facing. We understand that this might be a tough time for you, particularly if you’re new to recovery, so come here as often as you need to and participate in the forums, access online groups and connect to the live advice helpline if you need one to one support. We’re in this together!
Here on the forum you can share your experiences in a safe, supportive and accepting environment. The beauty of writing it all down is that you can take your time and you will be creating a record of your progress that you can look back on if it ever feels like you’re not moving forward. So, share as much or as little as you like but do try to stick to keeping just one thread in this forum so people know where to find you if they want to be updated on your progress or share something with you.
As well as the forums New Members are invited to join Charles in the New Members Practical Advice Group On Mondays at 21:00 (UK) and Thursday at 19:00(UK)
And on that note….
I’m going to hand you over to our community because I’m sure they will have some words of wisdom for you 🙂
Take care
The Gambling Therapy Team

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[wally2021]

you are not alone….I am an addict too!! thank you for sharing

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