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Part 1
… And here I am talking to a drug addicted young man. At that time, there were no specialized centers in Ukraine for addicted people from gambling (gambling addicts, gambling addicts). So he wanted to explain to me that when using drugs, the highest point of pleasure, pleasure, is reached, that there is nothing else in the world to achieve this high.
It’s no secret that you have to pay for pleasure – money, health, family, reputation and, of course, the most valuable thing – life.Thus, the so-called “salts” are a product called “expensive”, but a person, in a short period of time, turns into a set of organs, with brains that do not know and do not understand what is happening around. This drug melts the brain like the circuit boards of electrical appliances. Unfortunately, I saw such people there.
I have tried drugs, including hard drugs. I found myself in the center with a completely different addiction.And here I am, so proud, self-confident, starting to think. Am I getting tremendous pleasure – this thrill from the game? Or is my attraction to the game based on the desire to make money with OWN MIND?
What are people doing, very, energetic, promising, not stupid at enterprises, firms, institutions. Sooner or later they are looking for another job, where their efforts, time will be appreciated and lose with decent wages. Why do I continue to play if I do not receive a monetary reward for my “work”?And I work diligently, with dedication, I do my best in my power; overtime, sometimes for days without sleep, without lunch; I spend my free time not on my family and loved ones, but on this difficult “job”. Maybe I’m an altruist ?! Well, then why do my relatives and friends suffer?
Probably, after all, not in the desire to make money in the game. What then?I’m starting to dig into myself again, in my head. The feeling of confidence that I will find the answer to this question does not leave me. This is comparable to when you want to find $ 100, hidden by you at the best of times in one of the books in your home library, but you don’t remember which one. But you know what exactly you laid down and they are, you just need to look for them.
What attracts me to the game?Maybe because time flies by in the game. Very often when you need to “kill” time, or in line at the clinic, expecting a child when he studies at a section, on a long trip, it is simply boring and boring at home or at work. Everyone knows that the good moments in life fly by at a crazy speed. So there is something good in the game! What?
What the hell do I get in this game if I’m in rehab? What makes a child carry a gold cross to a pawnshop to stay in the game? So! Emotions aside. I rummage further in this “smart”, “light”, “gifted” head. Stop!!! Emotions !!! ??? What emotions do I experience while playing? What are the feelings at one time or another?
When I lose money, the emotions are negative. When I win, they are positive. As clear as God’s day. But for some reason it is very difficult for me to remember negative emotions and feelings, as clearly as positive ones.Here I lost – anger, rage, resentment, depression, despair, guilt, fatigue. So I won – euphoria, delight, grace, self-confidence, ease, relief, uplifting.
Why are negative emotions and feelings lost somewhere deeply, while positive ones are always on top? For myself, I found an explanation, but I will write about it later, otherwise I will not finish the thought.
I will dwell on the positive for now, because negative, negative feelings cannot attract and return to the game! When I won the game, I felt, I would not be afraid of this word, ALMIGHTY, because I and only I WITH MY MIND broke the whole system, picked up the golden key and I can open the door behind which a new world, with new possibilities, I can control my life, not depend on anyone or anything.
Isn’t it the highest point of pleasure? Isn’t this the peak of pleasure?But this feeling is not constant and disappears very quickly! And I only experience it through the game and winning it. Isn’t playing the kind of drug that my friend at the rehab told me about?
Yes! Yes!! Yes!!! It is a high quality, pure, undiluted drug. And it is very expensive. Highly!
I need a drug! I need a game! I’m a gambling addict! I am sick!

[Dunc]

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