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On May 4th 2008 (five years ago), I joined GT.
If I had used the tools I was given then, I would now be debt free, gamble free and in a far better state of health than I am today.
I didn’t follow Recovery Road then, so here I am starting out again. In April I gambled twice. May, so far has been a "clean" month.
Early days!
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Hi Vera
May the 4th be with you !!! You are right in what you say, no time for regrets and don’t look back, look forward to today and all it holds, and then the next day, and so on. Recovery is there for the taking dear friend, and I look forward to more positive posts from you x
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Hi Vera glad to see you have your own thread now too. One thing i noticed in your above post is that you didnt mention you had a LOT of recovery time within the time of being here. Had you not been here you may have had none. I remember you getting a year at one point. I think thats a big positive. You have had plenty of gamble free time while here and you have gambled sometimes too. There is still progress in there Vera. Had you not come here you may be more in debt than you are now. So glad to see you post and I am looking forward to our chats to come. Good on you Vera, dont beat yourself up. Its done, move forward now, give yourself the chance by also being kind to yourself. There are many who come here and don’t come back at all Vera. You have stayed and persevered like me. We will get there!!
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Originally posted by vera
On May 4th 2008 (five years ago), I joined GT.
No time for regrets. Life goes on…odaat!Good afternoon Vera,
Recovery calls for a serious approach and a continuous dedication to a journey that takes many turns and detours. Looking back only takes our eyes from the road ahead if it only adds to regrets instead of adding knowledge and warnings.
And not to take away from the seriousness of recovery, having a sense of humor is also a help; so, with that in mind and your date of coming on board at GT as a lead-in:
"May the 4Th be with you always" ~ Luke Skywalker, Star Wars (While slightly inebriated and trying to pronounce Force).
God’s speed. Stay strong.
Larry
Thanks to my Higher Power, My 3G’s – God, GA, and GT, "Day Two Is Another Day Behind" and with the help from all I hope to continue to remain gambling free.– 5/5/2013 2:12:50 PM: post edited by paul315. -
Hi Vera, I’m so happy to see you started your thread. I hope to read more about ‘you ‘. In the years I have been here, and all the conversations we have had, I don’t think I truly know your story. I think it’s long overdue. Love K ******
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Hi Vera,
Hind sight is always 20/20.
Had I stayed the course I was on five years ago I might be dead by now. In fact, I never dreamed I would make it to 50, which I have.
I was glad to find you here 3 years ago when I found GT. I’m glad to find you here now .
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Vera I’m a slow learner too. It takes a while to learn (and re-learn) that we don’t want our life going down ‘that’ path and we’re the only ones that can change it. My advice is to make sure you can’t access money to gamble because that’s saved me many a time. Sometimes it’s easier when we don’t have a choice.
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Originally posted by Vera
… If I had used the tools I was given then, I would now be debt free, gamble free and in a far better state of health than I am today …
and, by bettie
… Had I stayed the course I was on five years ago I might be dead by now …
Good morning,
As one can see in the different realizations above, our thinking and attitudes are an important part of recovery. On one hand "if only" shows our shortcoming, while on the other hand the "if not for" represents our progress. Both trains of thought are in my mind, but the "if not for" is the one that recovery takes over and moves us forward, for as Bettie points out quite a few of us would possibly be dead and not able to progress.
God’s speed. Stay strong. Keep moving forward and knowing that it is progress not perfection. This thought is far better than waking up wishing that we were dead. LarryThanks to my Higher Power, My 3G's – God, GA, and GT, "Day Two Is Another Day Behind" and with the help from all I hope to continue to remain gambling free. -
Vera my friend, you are here, you are in recovery and as we both know there is no better place to be but I am also very glad you are here, take care and will always wish you well love Maverick.
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Vera, so wonderful that you have started your own thread. How is your counseling going? I know that you said on a post that all you did was talk. I know that is what I do as well, but it surprised me how some things came up as I was talking. The counselors tend to pick up on things and give you suggestions and help you deal with them. I have not been for a while, but it really did help me. I hope your health is doing okay. One day at a time my sweet lord…
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Hi Vera,
I wish I could take credit for you not gambling today. I just posted the reminder, you did the work!
Trying to do a lot of stuff before I am back at work next week. It will be different as the assistant manager was let go last Thursday. Just taking deep breaths and trying not to stress about it.
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Hi Vera, well done on starting your own thread.
Good speaking to you earlier – however far you ended up walking it was good enough for today -
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Ah V, what I would do for an Indian meal right about now. So glad to see you with your own thread. Did you have a session today or is it every two weeks? Feeling a bit guilty reading about your walk. I’m lazier and lazier as the summer approaches when I should be kicking things into high gear. And I’m so FAT!!! Ewww … my gorgeous self is locked in a blubber suit and I feel like perhaps I’m sentenced to life in this thing. I’m eating like a hog, grunting from tv to fridge to car to convenience store … oink oink.
You’ll be pleased to know that I’ve made the decision to do marketing for my husband’s business while I’m awaiting the dream job. I figure why not boost his business … we both benefit, right? Needless to say, I HATE cold calling, but it’s easy enough, so let’s see. Of course I know I should’ve been doing this all along, but why would I do something positive?
No gambling urges/plans today. Still on the straight and narrow and feeling good. Hope all is well with you my friend. RG -
It’s really hot here and I’m debating about a frozen dinner in the microwave with a big salad or cooking a big meal. Wish my husband liked pizza. I like hearing the little things of life like walking and making dinner. I imagine what it’s like in your part of the world…the grass is always greener. Enjoy your evening and don’t work too hard tomorrow.
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Hi V
Hope you are well. 5 years is a good while. You do give great advice on hear and have helped a lot of folks. You have had periods of sustained abstinence over that time. Your journey continues and as you very well know, the choices you make our yours and yours alone. I wish you the strength to make the right decisions each and every day -
Vera, you really did go for a good walk if you made three miles. I think I could learn a thing or two from you in that department. I know that you have told me over the last couple of years when I was feeling depressed that I should go for a walk. I know that I think of it, but don’t get up and do it. The weather is starting to get a bit better now so there is no excuse for me, except laziness on my part. I am so glad that you have started your thread Vera. You have done so much for so many of us here that we want to help and support you as well. Take care V, and have Faith in yourself!!!One day at a time my sweet lord…
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hi Vera good to hear from you you love your indians i am more a macaris man when you said you were working tonight it made me think of all my ole haunts up there the greyhound the bell the vortex and ice haha theyv all probbly different names now. look after yourself Vera
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hi Vera good to hear from you you love your indians i am more a macaris man when you said you were working tonight it made me think of all my ole haunts up there the greyhound the bell the vortex and ice haha theyv all probbly different names now. look after yourself Vera
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hi Vera good to hear from you you love your indians i am more a macaris man when you said you were working tonight it made me think of all my ole haunts up there the greyhound the bell the vortex and ice haha theyv all probbly different names now. look after yourself Vera
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Hi Vera,
It was so good to ‘meet you’ in the community session yesterday. I’m going to bed now, so I’ll be saying that prayer for you shortly.
Adele "… should I give up or should I just keep trying to run after you when there's nothing there?" Adele -
Hi Vera, hope you enjoyed whatever hubby cooked. No baby as yet……..he is now 4 days overdue and daughter has had enough of pregnancy. Booked in for induction soon if he doesnt arrive. Will keep you updated. Sending love to you in your continued recovery xEveryone has a destiny, it's up to us whether we choose to follow it though !Looby Loo
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hi Vera hope you get a run of day duty now and you start to get a good nights sleep its no joke a lack of sleep.had urges yesterday again i suppose i was thinking after getting the car threw the test and working hard at my recovery this 70 odd days it was time for a well earned gamble. last night i went on the drink with a mate and just took enough cash and no cards, today urges are gone thank God im trying to think before i act adaat. my mothers nerves arnt great atm God help her it comes on her every year or 2 and can last usually between 3 and 6 months she worries to much about us all. Vera a lot of people on here rooting for you hope you have a good weekend.Take care
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Hi Ms. V: Sounds like an interesting article. Not sure what shame I would be hiding, have to think about that one. However, I had an odd thought earlier today. I have a complete fear of happiness. I feel that if I’m happy something bad is going to happen. I’m certain that happiness cannot last, so the moment I feel even the slightest bit contented, I’m certain it’s going to end. I know … so stupid. Definitely something that I need to seek counseling about. Have to break the pattern of self destruction.
Hope that you have leveled out as far as your sleeping pattern goes. Transitioning from day to night is brutal … I don’t think I would be able to handle it. It’s good that you know that it was a gambling trigger. Now perhaps you can find other ways to manage. What about naturopathic interventions for stabilizing your sleep cycle?
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Hi Vera
Was hoping to catch you in chat again. I hope that all is going well for you today
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***** Miss Vera!..I was locked out of my account for 3 days and then company in from out of town…so now back and see you have a new thread..nice!..Re exhaustion: that is a HUGE trigger for me…and when I did gamble at the casino, the more tired I got, the more compulsive my gambling became…Danger Zone! We must work on handling that…
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Dear (((Vera)))! Great to see that you have a new thread that you opened for yourself. I hear a brand new attitude in you, and it’s great to hear that you are no longer in the throes of your gambling addiction. Have you put in financial barriers for yourself for paydays?? Cash in my hand is a huge trigger and I often get cash from renters, which I need to deposit quickly or I might gamble, as I have done in the past with some of that money. I have a $100 withdrawal limit from the bank machine, so that helps me stay on the straight and narrow. I can no longer access cash from my credit card which has been a huge blessing for me. I am banned from all the casinos in the province I live in. Plus my husband has educated himself on how to monitor our account online, which is a deterrent for me to not gamble. I find the more roadblocks I can put in, the less urges I get. It gives me great pleasue to see you not suffering emotionally anymore due to gambling. We get to choose whether we want to stay in the insanity of our emotional illness or learn to cope with life’s challenges without gambling. We get that choice one day at a time. Carole
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