4 May 2013 at 8:15 pm #10673veraParticipant
On May 4th 2008 (five years ago), I joined GT.
If I had used the tools I was given then, I would now be debt free, gamble free and in a far better state of health than I am today.
I didn’t follow Recovery Road then, so here I am starting out again. In April I gambled twice. May, so far has been a "clean" month.
No time for regrets. Life goes on…odaat!4 May 2013 at 8:22 pm #10674looby looParticipant
May the 4th be with you !!! You are right in what you say, no time for regrets and don’t look back, look forward to today and all it holds, and then the next day, and so on. Recovery is there for the taking dear friend, and I look forward to more positive posts from you x
Everyone has a destiny, it's up to us whether we choose to follow it though !Looby Loo4 May 2013 at 8:41 pm #10675pParticipant
Hi Vera glad to see you have your own thread now too. One thing i noticed in your above post is that you didnt mention you had a LOT of recovery time within the time of being here. Had you not been here you may have had none. I remember you getting a year at one point. I think thats a big positive. You have had plenty of gamble free time while here and you have gambled sometimes too. There is still progress in there Vera. Had you not come here you may be more in debt than you are now. So glad to see you post and I am looking forward to our chats to come. Good on you Vera, dont beat yourself up. Its done, move forward now, give yourself the chance by also being kind to yourself. There are many who come here and don’t come back at all Vera. You have stayed and persevered like me. We will get there!!
P4 May 2013 at 11:23 pm #10676paul315Participant
Originally posted by vera
On May 4th 2008 (five years ago), I joined GT.
No time for regrets. Life goes on…odaat!
Good afternoon Vera,
Recovery calls for a serious approach and a continuous dedication to a journey that takes many turns and detours. Looking back only takes our eyes from the road ahead if it only adds to regrets instead of adding knowledge and warnings.
And not to take away from the seriousness of recovery, having a sense of humor is also a help; so, with that in mind and your date of coming on board at GT as a lead-in:
"May the 4Th be with you always" ~ Luke Skywalker, Star Wars (While slightly inebriated and trying to pronounce Force).
God’s speed. Stay strong.
Thanks to my Higher Power, My 3G’s – God, GA, and GT, "Day Two Is Another Day Behind" and with the help from all I hope to continue to remain gambling free.– 5/5/2013 2:12:50 PM: post edited by paul315.4 May 2013 at 11:30 pm #10677kathrynParticipant
Hi Vera, I’m so happy to see you started your thread. I hope to read more about ‘you ‘. In the years I have been here, and all the conversations we have had, I don’t think I truly know your story. I think it’s long overdue. Love K ******4 May 2013 at 11:41 pm #10678bettieParticipant
Hind sight is always 20/20.
Had I stayed the course I was on five years ago I might be dead by now. In fact, I never dreamed I would make it to 50, which I have.
I was glad to find you here 3 years ago when I found GT. I’m glad to find you here now .
bettie5 May 2013 at 2:02 am #10679nevaParticipant
Vera I’m a slow learner too. It takes a while to learn (and re-learn) that we don’t want our life going down ‘that’ path and we’re the only ones that can change it. My advice is to make sure you can’t access money to gamble because that’s saved me many a time. Sometimes it’s easier when we don’t have a choice.
I’m glad you started your own thread too and looking forward to hearing more from you. Sherry5 May 2013 at 2:10 pm #10680paul315Participant
Originally posted by Vera
… If I had used the tools I was given then, I would now be debt free, gamble free and in a far better state of health than I am today …
and, by bettie
… Had I stayed the course I was on five years ago I might be dead by now …
As one can see in the different realizations above, our thinking and attitudes are an important part of recovery. On one hand "if only" shows our shortcoming, while on the other hand the "if not for" represents our progress. Both trains of thought are in my mind, but the "if not for" is the one that recovery takes over and moves us forward, for as Bettie points out quite a few of us would possibly be dead and not able to progress.
God’s speed. Stay strong. Keep moving forward and knowing that it is progress not perfection. This thought is far better than waking up wishing that we were dead. LarryThanks to my Higher Power, My 3G's – God, GA, and GT, "Day Two Is Another Day Behind" and with the help from all I hope to continue to remain gambling free.5 May 2013 at 3:42 pm #10681maverick.Participant
Vera my friend, you are here, you are in recovery and as we both know there is no better place to be but I am also very glad you are here, take care and will always wish you well love Maverick.5 May 2013 at 5:41 pm #10682cat438Participant
Vera, so wonderful that you have started your own thread. How is your counseling going? I know that you said on a post that all you did was talk. I know that is what I do as well, but it surprised me how some things came up as I was talking. The counselors tend to pick up on things and give you suggestions and help you deal with them. I have not been for a while, but it really did help me. I hope your health is doing okay. One day at a time my sweet lord…6 May 2013 at 7:03 pm #10683bettieParticipant
I wish I could take credit for you not gambling today. I just posted the reminder, you did the work!
Trying to do a lot of stuff before I am back at work next week. It will be different as the assistant manager was let go last Thursday. Just taking deep breaths and trying not to stress about it.
bettie6 May 2013 at 7:10 pm #10684charlesModerator
Hi Vera, well done on starting your own thread.
Good speaking to you earlier – however far you ended up walking it was good enough for today6 May 2013 at 9:33 pm #10685veraParticipant
Just back from walking now Charles. Darkness fell after three miles so I dropped into a neighbour’s house for a chat then dodged the traffic and got home in one piece. Debating now whether I will go for an Indian meal now or just pop a frozen pizza in the oven. Probably the latter because hubby is exhausted. I’m only getting my "second wind"now after a day in bed. This time tomorrow night I will be up to my eyes on night duty!
Anything is better than gambling!6 May 2013 at 11:59 pm #10686AnonymousGuest
Ah V, what I would do for an Indian meal right about now. So glad to see you with your own thread. Did you have a session today or is it every two weeks? Feeling a bit guilty reading about your walk. I’m lazier and lazier as the summer approaches when I should be kicking things into high gear. And I’m so FAT!!! Ewww … my gorgeous self is locked in a blubber suit and I feel like perhaps I’m sentenced to life in this thing. I’m eating like a hog, grunting from tv to fridge to car to convenience store … oink oink.
You’ll be pleased to know that I’ve made the decision to do marketing for my husband’s business while I’m awaiting the dream job. I figure why not boost his business … we both benefit, right? Needless to say, I HATE cold calling, but it’s easy enough, so let’s see. Of course I know I should’ve been doing this all along, but why would I do something positive?
No gambling urges/plans today. Still on the straight and narrow and feeling good. Hope all is well with you my friend. RG7 May 2013 at 2:32 am #10687nevaParticipant
It’s really hot here and I’m debating about a frozen dinner in the microwave with a big salad or cooking a big meal. Wish my husband liked pizza. I like hearing the little things of life like walking and making dinner. I imagine what it’s like in your part of the world…the grass is always greener. Enjoy your evening and don’t work too hard tomorrow.
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