[ls6762]

Hi I’m completely new to this so sorry if seems I’m rambling not sure what im doing tbh and although my problems started in other areas its come down to gambling on sites over last year not a long time compared to others I know maybe luckily I have realised it was getting out of hand.I have not spoke to anybody about this Ive completely hid this from my partner and family they been through enough of there own without my stupidity I have been battling my own deamons last few years losing loved ones work related issues and a complete change in the way I have seen and know of my family life that’s another story basically it’s all turned to mush in my head and became depressed I went though all the things with doctors and been on medication for last 8 years well that’s a little background but it’s only recently I found online gambling and I think you will all know the rest as things ive read are as if it was wrote about me it was a complete escape and a massive buzz even upto yesterday but carnt help the guilt now I’ve taken a overdraft used my credit card and any spare cash I had over time to feed this all the time getting a bit lower and more angry with myself constantly thinking and even hearing noises that remind me of the game it just seems to be there from waking up and the thought of god I’m down how much from last night to if only that other dropped first I’d be x amount up.I have thought long and hard and have to admit to myself I’ve been taken in with it I wouldn’t mind I have known 2 people gone through this so maybe helped me realise quick as one lost everything and stole over 120k from employer and other was about 6k in debt but like you do it won’t happen to me they was just stupid or so I thought.well wrong I now know how easy it is to fall in this trap and woke up this morning and enough is enough as much as writing this and contemplating writing off my losses is killing me I need to move on before it gets worse I think answering my own questions writing this and is helpful already but still feel stupid and guilty and not sure what to do about my losses and future to rebuild I did shut my account down just before writing this but not sure where to go from here yet.If you made it to here thank you for reading

[Dunc]

Hello and thanks for starting a thread in the Gambling Therapy forums

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