wow, I felt such sorrow, pain, and loss in your poem, I almost cried. I am sorry you are going through such a hard time right now. I hope you find release from this demon soon. Keep writing in your journal. The first few days can be very tough, I am praying for you.
i never know an addiction that could ruin someone in such a short space of time. Just last month i was gamble free and finacially recovering and 2 nights was all it took to hit …i want to bury myself in a hole atm
The gains are so slow… and I am finding for the people who recover for awhile, the relapse becomes worse and worse… almost like making up for lost time! Probably the psyche telling us we shouldn’t be doing it, so go for it for now. And then the house of cards come crashing down.