[CTBchris]

my name is chris and i have a serious gambling problem; over the last 5 years i’ve lost about $120k.
ni have read many of your stories and i relate to them intensely.
nlike many of you, i come here at at a very low point in life but with the intent to break this endless cycle and get my life back.
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ni declared bankruptcy earlier this year, lost my apartment, fiancee, good paying job and now use crystal meth daily to mask my depression and suicidal thoughts.
nmy car is totaled but held together with many zip ties and i am currently 40 and living in my mother’s house.
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nstarting today i am seriously determined to end this horrific cycle and and get my life back. i’d like to use this space to honestly document my progress.
nmy hope is that this process will make me feel more accountable for my actions and aid in my recovery.
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ni welcome your comments, questions and friendships along the way and hope that we can triumph over this disease together.

[CTBchris]

today is a new day but i’ve left myself in a bit of a bind as my mind was filled with delusions of grandeur throughout the night.
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ni prescheduled a (now irreversible) pay-off to a loan shark for tomorrow but i thought i could first invest said money at the casino and use my anticipated winnings to pay off the debt; of course this didn’t happen and i lost everything.
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nsadly i was fully aware that if my scheduled wire failed I would be responsible for triple the principal plus penalties; yet i still gambled. never again.

[Mr-nice-guy]

Hi mate, I can relate with everything. Currently it’s 2:20am here in london and im high smoking on marijuana to drown my depressing thoughts of my finances because of my gambling. Knowing the next pay cheque have to go to people I owe money too. That same vicious cycle, the older we get it gets worse whereas you’d think you’d learn your lesson this late in..
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nAnyways I signed up to this site just ubder two weeks ago and haven’t posted anything more than my day one story.. But I read your story and just wanted to reach out and say keep faith. Sounds like you been through it all. The worst of worst but that’s not how it has to end… As long as we got our two arms two legs and health we don’t need money. The best thingz in life come free.
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nWe can clear our debts slowly and still try to enjoy life. Good luck mate. I hate living like this, knowing how little I have in comparison to others around me. Life ey

[josh]

Some day all of your debts will be repaid, and you will no longer use illegal drugs. Imagine, a life free of doubt, debt, worry and depression. You can do it…

IF you can stop gambling. Today. Now. Immediately.

From there, it is one day at a time… because the disease never rests. It lurks, waiting for an opportunity to strike… telling you things that you want to believe, but of course aren’t true.

I believe you can do it!

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