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  • #10705
    cat438
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    It is May in Ireland and the UK although it may not be in North America.  I know that I start a new one of these every month.  I also know it is one day at a time that we get through the day, and then its one week and we continue working it one day at a time.  I pray that we (myself and all fellow cg’s) can get through this day without gambling.  Wishing everyone a wonderful gamble free day!!!!One day at a time my sweet lord…

    #10706
    p
    Participant

    Ok, today it is what it is, i woke feeling strong, the next half hour i had urges i could almost not handle, the next hour i was convinced i couldnt make it, the next hour i thought no its ok i can if i keep doing what im doing.. and this is how my day goes, but thats ok. As long as i dont gamble today
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    #10707
    Anonymous
    Guest

    I’m in and this time I’m determined to make it through the month.  Here’s to success for one and all!!

    #10708
    ready2change
    Participant

    ***** me in 2 cheers

    #10709
    mythea
    Participant

    I´m also in!

    #10710
    paul315
    Participant

    Originally posted by cat438
     … I start a new one of these every month … 
    One day at a time my sweet lord…
    Good afternoon all,
    Just so happens it is May in the Americas as well, also ‘May Day" for a lot of events and celebrations; it may have been lacking a few minutes in being the actual date when Cat started the May Pact, but we do eventually catch up just as I am catching up now by joining in on this effort of determination and support.
    But the important thing is that like her starting a new topic each month, we can be gambling free during that month by effectively starting a new day each day. Each new day represents being the day that we no not gamble for anything, no mater what day of the month or year it falls on. "It take days to make weeks, weeks to make months, and months to make years"; all leading to a lifetime of living a more normal life ODAAT.
    "BE PATIENT!  The days and weeks will pass soon enough, and as you regularly attend meetings, abstain from gambling and follow the guidelines (of recovery), you will experience continued recovery." ~ a guideline from the GA Combo Book for all in recovery no matter what program they follow.
    God’s speed. Stay strong. LarryThanks to my Higher Power, My 3G's – God, GA, and GT,  "Day Two Is Another Day Behind" and with the help from all I hope to continue to remain gambling free.

    #10711
    p
    Participant

    Two days now in May for me. Well the beginning of the Second but i can say it will be gamble free because i have made up my mind this morning that thats how this day will be….
    P

    #10712
    kathryn
    Participant

    I am definitely in 🙂

    #10713
    cat438
    Participant

    I did not gamble yesterday and I do not plan on gambling today.  It is now 6 months since I put money in those slots/vlts and I did it ODAAT.  I know that I am the same distance away from everyone in placing my next bet.  I have been here before so I know how easy it is to be back to Day 1…One day at a time my sweet lord…

    #10714
    sherrie
    Participant

    I’m off to my GA meeting to get my pin. I wish the folks here who’ve helped me could be there but I hope you will be there in spirit. Thanks for all the support.
    Sherrie
    xoxoxox

    #10715
    vera
    Participant

    Well done on 6 G free months Cat. I hate wishing my life away but time will go by no matter what we do so its better not to have to look back and say we wasted our time! Hope you enjoyed every G free day of those 6 months. Thats the main thing!

    #10716
    cat438
    Participant

    Vera, I don’t know that I enjoyed every gamble free day as I had to fight to stay away from gambling on many of the days.  I so wanted to go and see my "friend" the vlt/slots just to escape from all my emotional turmoil, and I also wanted to go for some excitement in my life.  There are days I have to fight to stay away, but I know if I put one cent/penny in those slots/vlts then I am finished!!!!  I can’t stop once I start feeding the addiction.  I wish that I could be a responsible gambler, but I am slowly accepting that I will never be a responsible gambler.  I do miss my "friend" and I yearn to go and see the vlt/slots, but I know anyone who takes all your time and money is not a real friend.  I have days that I feel so depressed and down and think if only I could go for a "wee while", but I have to accept I can’t.  I know that many people here have said they feel that they would not be the people they are today if they had not gambled.  I don’t know if I feel that way.  I wish to **** that I had never started with those bloody machines, but I can’t change the past, and I think of the saying…"don’t look back, your not going that way".  I will continue to plod day by day to get through.  I know that I am scared about things when I think about retiring as then I would have all that time on my hands.  I know that I am a bit of a workaholic so I have to think and do some planning for when I quit working.  I also know that I could very easily end up back playing those vlt/slots in a split second, so I have to continue to be on my guard no matter how much gamble free time I have.  The longest I have gone gamble free since I joined GT is 7 months so Vera I have never achieved what you did with a year of gamble free time!!!!  I will continue to take it one day at a time and work towards a gamble free life.  I know that there are a number of people on this site who have achieved a number of years so it can be done, but they all got there the same way by taking it one day at a time.  I did not gamble yesterday and do not plan on gambling today.  Wishing everyone a gamble free day!!!One day at a time my sweet lord…

    #10717
    Anonymous
    Guest

    The day hasn’t ended yet, so I can still pledge that I will not gamble on Friday May 3. This is a teensy personal milestone for me.  Before April 10, I made it to 23 days (small potatoes, I know).  Now, I’ve made it to 23 days again.  The difference this time?  I have no urges to go, no plans to coerce my husband to part with "just" $160 or so.  And this is not because I have it all figured out … it’s because I have nowhere to go … finally … I’m so thrilled.  After all those years of banning, rebanning, calling security, turning myself in, our province has finally raised the fine sufficiently to give me some pause before going. Truth be told, the only reason I am only not gambling on this day is because of those bans and Betfilter.  Every once in a while, I worry about what would happen if I went on vacation, but then I remind myself that it’s only today I have to worry about and each day, perhaps I will get stronger and eventually be able to handle myself in the face of temptation. RG

    #10718
    p
    Participant

    Hi RG well done that is super fantastic news!!!!
    P

    #10719
    p
    Participant

    No gambling, some***** i may want to, and i may want to a LOT but what is evident to me is i cant. No matter how much at ***** i want to go and thats all it is a want to do this stupid habit. I have to let it go, It hurts me, it makes me sick. it poisons my mind and my life and my thoughts and it takes me over if i let it. So today i dont let it, i let the hope of living an addiction free life flow through my veins today. The sun is shining, the birds are singing, I feel calm and tired yet hopeful that if i havent given in this day either there is more and more hope growing that i may this time not give in.. all possible of course yet tough to get that through my little brain some days….. on goes the journey
    P

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