hi i am jamie and i am a compulsive gambler. I went back to ga tonight for the first time in nearly four years did not relies
how long its been. its time to stop wasting my life i am 33 and only had one girlfriend have no friends because i have isolated myself so much that i found it hard to share in the meeting tonight. I am a shy guy and have come to the conclusion that is why i gamble all my money to punish myself for being a coward and don’t deserve money or a life. i don’t
know what happened to night but i can see the light at the end of the tunnel. an amazing thing happened to me to night after the meeting i had to walk past four bookies the last one i nearly went in but didn’t less then thirty seconds later i found a £20 note on the floor an for the first time in i don’t know how long i didn’t even think about going in the bookies. I think that £20 is a sign that i am on the right path going to ga. and i am good enough to be loved and i do have things to be grateful for i have a close family a good job that i like. So my day one starts now and not beat myself up any more and get to as meany meetings as i can. i will beat this one day at a time. just for today i will not gamble love and light and peace
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