[ernest88]

Greetings, my name is ERNEST FROM BENUE STATE (NIGERIA) I started gambling 4years ago, that was during my final year in the university, in the beginning I only gambled small amounts such as 10000 naira, per week, but that became 20000nsira twice a week for I was working & I was a students Union leader, (SENATOR & CLERK) and for the past years I have topped the maximum amount I can go. I have been gambling up to 40000 naira to 50000 nairaper day in most sessions and I would get mad when I don’t win.. I had a really large win around 7 months ago and I was on top of the world. I had won 150 000 naira, I cashed it out and made a pledge to myself that I wasn’t going to gamble any more since this is the highest amount of money I have held at one time. I am 32 years old now and a gambling addict. Within just a week after winning that amount I had nothing. I maximised my overdrafts trying to get that feeling again. I have lost everything I had, including my integrity and name, my relationships as I write this I don’t have a phone of my own or job, l and father no longer talk as a result of this habit,I have not been sincere and honest with people any longer as I don’t keep promises any longer.
I am so scared, scared of how much this is effecting me and how it could potentially ruin my future. I just can’t seem to stop. After NYSC I got a new job as a school principal that was paying me relatively well but couldn’t stay long in it because all my money went on gambling and I even missappropraited funds and I lost the job two months ago, which am still in depted to my employer.I have been betting literally every penny that comes my way so I never have had the chance to get out my debts. I have Dept of up to 200000 naira as a result of this.
I have really upset myself and let myself down and I am almost right back at the start.I am out of work but I have been gambling all of the money people gift to me, so I just never see the money. I don’t know what to do, I don’t want to do it again. I almost took my life (SUCIDE)on 9th July, but a thought came that there is a way out of the mess, I need HELP. So I have decided to speak out.
I am fully aware I’m addicted and Iam willing to take every precaution I can think of and find to stop gambling.
I want to change, right now for good before I waste any more of my life. If I can stop , realistically I could get out my debts within a few months of working hard. I just wanted to write this massage as a milestone that gambling is now my past by the grace of God.. I will be honest that I don’t convince myself but I really have to try. Gambling is loosing, it brings ill luck among others and I don’t feel sorry for myself, I’m angry at myself for always failing. Am in tears writing this to you.
I look forward to making a change and wish you be part of this hard step out of my addiction and show me the love you can. ERNEST FROM NIGERIA.

• This topic was modified 3 years, 2 months ago by charles.

[G Rec]

Hi Ernest,

Well done on recognizing your problem and taking a positive step with this post. I look forward to following your progress on here.

[ernest88]

Thanks G Rec,

[kaylentstanton]

I’m sorry to hear about your struggles with gambling addiction. You have taken a brave and necessary step in writing this post and reaching out for help. It takes a lot of strength and courage to ask for help and to be honest about your situation.

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