12 May 2019 at 6:36 pm #6751queueParticipant
For years, I have kept my opinion about my father’s problem to myself because I personally dislike conflict and I like to believe and convince myself that things have changed– that he has changed.
For context, here are the things that had happened:
1. At an early age, my father was exposed to an environment where the male figures in his life gamble and drinks alcoholic drinks.
2. Ever since I was young (I am now 18), I remember my father coming home drunk after spending time with ‘friends’
- I think the cause of this drinking problem was our financial position which may have caused both my parents’ enormous stress.
3. In his workplace, gambling was the way most of his co-workers spend their free time
- I remember my mother confronting him in places where he gambles. In the past, they fought almost regularly to the point that I grew accustomed to their act where the kiss and makeup.
Additionally, here are the things that are happening as of now:
1. My mom became an enabler of his gambling tendencies in a way that she has accepted and made terms with my father regarding his gambling. (PS. My mom is still hopeful that his conscience will wake him up and I do believe her but
I only fear that maybe faith is not enough).
2. He defends his problem by saying that it is only a past time, reasoning out that gambling is better than doing drugs, and stating the fact that we should not teach him how to enjoy or spend his life
*Recently, we had an unplanned confrontation. It was triggered when we failed to acknowledge his presence and reconciling effort (he cooked a meal) after he has missed a family event
due to the fact that he gambled again*
- My parents argued about money, debt, and business. I remember my father trying to emotionally attack my mother by saying that my mom is arrogant about the money she has acquired from
investments and businesses. (I think he was playing victim, trying to project an image where he is the good one by antagonizing people)
- We came to their room. He began venting about how disrespectful we were for not talking to him and not noticing the meal that he cooked.
- My brother began to open up about how he felt. My father familiarly recited that he was wrong (for missing the family event)// this felt like a rewind of the things he had done before (apologizing
and not doing anything to change)
- I was quiet but not for long. I exactly said this: I am not angry at you. I am just disappointed. (PS. This was a highly emotional moment, he paused for a while then he again said that he was wrong
and that we were too independent to ever need him and that we shouldn’t apologize for our disrespectful attitude for he was also wrong.
- He then reasoned out that he has given enough time for the family. I then said: Yes, you made time for us but it was not quality time. (He paused again and proceeded to remind me how he is still
our father and I was in no position to dictate how he should live his life.
So you could say that that was my breaking point. I have said a fraction of the things that have been on my mind– feelings of disappointment, frustration, and sadness. I admit that I was not as gentle and
understanding as what I wanted to be. Again, this was an unplanned confrontation. I feel like I haven’t said everything that I needed to say. I want to talk to him about his gambling problem but I fear that he
might deny his situation and brush gambling as a past time he has always done and enjoyed. It just hurts to think that he thinks and believes that he can’t change and this is the only person he could be.12 May 2019 at 7:54 pm #6752velvetModerator
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