10 November 2016 at 3:48 pm #34880batjkaParticipant
I did today my first blog and this is a copy. I just wanted to take out everything what i am keeping in myself
This is my first blog. Why I am writing this blog? Answer is very simple, I was gambling for past 3 years and today is the day when I decided to stop.
I started to gamble when I was 15. My friends was going to play slot machines and asked me to join. So other friend gave me his provisional driving licence and I could go gamble. I did enjoy play slot machines. But that was just a beginning.
I had a lot of free time, because my parents was divorced and I lived with my dad. After some time my dad was looking for new women in his life, so he wasn’t at home and I had his bank cards, house, cars and everything at weekends.
When I was 16 made a new friends. One of those friends was addicted to gambling. He didn’t went to school, When someone phone him he was usually at casino and didn’t speak with anyone. He made his money by selling weed. So one day when we went to old city for drinks in early morning we went to casino. And that was a time when my gambling addiction started. First I played slot machines. I didn’t won often but when I won I spent money for cocaine or drinks, parties. After that I started to play blackjack. I would say I am addicted to blackjack. Some days we could win all a lot of money in blackjack but other days just lose and lose.
After end of summer my dad’s bank account balance was very low. So I played till the end with aim to win back money and put back in his back account. Of course I didn’t won anything but I lost all his money. After that I even took some pay day loans.
When my dad found out what I have done he took me to police. We just went there and police officer asked him, if he really want to after his son and he said no. So we went home and after he asked me if I want to go to another country, because he don’t want to live with me together anymore.
So I moved in UK with my brother. I was just 16 and I was on my own. I left my studies. My first job was in carwash and after in kitchen as a kitchen porter. I was paying rent for my brother and also paying back my dad money which I lost. When I turned 18 I went to casino and I won quiet big money. After that day I was just there every or every second day. Once I got money I took all my money to casino. After my 18th birthday I was gambling for another 9 months every day. And lost as well quiet a lot of money.
Today I finally realize that I am addicted to gambling and it is a serious problem. And I just have one question? Why it happen with me
I was reading forums and some articles and now I understand I can’t gamble because once I gamble I got addicted. Simple as that.
I just woke up today and I look at my room. It’s empty. I have sold all stuff what I had. I own money and everything is bad. I feel like i woke up from a bad dream and everything is still bad. And now my mission is to get back in normal life.
So I would say for EVERYONE who like to sometimes go gamble or anyone asked to go with them – DON’T.
Because everything starts from nothing and after you don’t want to look in your bank account because it is insane. Gambling will take everything away from you. Your family, friends, work, studies, computer, phone and everything else. You will just woke up in one morning and realize that was the stupidest thing ever. I am not saying it could be worst like that, bad it will be bad. There is no winners. Ok, there is some that will not be you. And even those who win big they will lose after more and more.10 November 2016 at 3:49 pm #34881batjkaParticipant
Please give me your feedback.10 November 2016 at 8:03 pm #34882charlesModerator
Hello and thanks for starting a thread in the Gambling Therapy forums
Here at Gambling Therapy we pride ourselves on being a caring and diverse online community who can help and support you with the difficulties you’re currently facing. We understand that this might be a tough time for you, particularly if you’re new to recovery, so come here as often as you need to and participate in the forums, access online groups and connect to the live advice helpline if you need one to one support. We’re in this together!
Here on the forum you can share your experiences in a safe, supportive and accepting environment. The beauty of writing it all down is that you can take your time and you will be creating a record of your progress that you can look back on if it ever feels like you’re not moving forward. So, share as much or as little as you like but do try to stick to keeping just one thread in this forum so people know where to find you if they want to be updated on your progress or share something with you.
As well as the forums New Members are invited to join Charles in the New Members Practical Advice Group On Mondays at 21:00 (UK) and Thursday at 19:00(UK)
And on that note….
I’m going to hand you over to our community because I’m sure they will have some words of wisdom for you 🙂
The Gambling Therapy Team10 November 2016 at 9:22 pm #34883charlesModerator
Hello Batjka, well done on looking for help. Read the other stories here, you will see a lot of things that you will relate to. You will also see the success stories – what are they doing that you can apply to your own situation?
If the one question you have is “Why did it happen to me?” Then you might not find that here. I am a compulsive gambler, my brother can gamble normally. Why me and not him? I have no idea. The important question though, especially at this stage, isn’t the “why?” it’s the “What can I do about it?”
Are you still in the UK? If so then you hae a lot of support available to you when it comes to stopping gambling. Other countries do to.
Keep posting and let us know the positive steps you are taking.
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