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    • #33165
      Succesful
      Participant

      Day 0

      Yesterday I spend a little money on gambling and won a lot, then lost it all. It was since a while that I finally won again and yet I kept playing.

      It’s not the first time this happens and yet I do the same thing over and over;
      Gamble to win money –> Mostly lose money –> win sometimes –> want to win more–> lose the winning –> even lose more –> feel depressed again.
      But I felt happy as well, I had my drugs. I finally could bet high, I was shaking during the session.

      And after that I blamed gambling, hated in, wanted to stop again. I had a good feeling about it, I could do it this time. But this only lasted the moment I had my drug.

      The next day (today) I felt bad that I lost all the money. I felt bad that I couldn’t go back to play again. All the things I thought yesterday ( 12 hours ago) were gone.

      It’s a f*cking drug. It makes me even shake, unbelievable.

      That’s why I’ve always failed. Yesterday I decided to be more positive, I even chose a positive name. I was so confident I wanted to stop this time for real and yet today I want to go gambling, but I can’t because I haven’t go any money. The urge was so high that I bought a scratchcard with my last money.

      I feel so desperate. I can’t stop. But I want to. Because;

      Gambling is sucking happiness out of me.

      I cant enjoy anything else then gambling.

      But then again I don’t want to stop, I want to win. If I could choose between stopping and winning it would be the second one.

      And that’s why I keep going back over the years. There have been periods I stopped. But after a while you get the urge, you got the money and you still want to win. You forget all the things in the past. You’re living the moment which got a dream-future in your mind. But you always lose, maybe not the same day, maybe not the same week, but it will happen eventually and then this moment can be added to the failed past and you feel miserable again.

      It’s a roller-coaster, full of emotions and feelings. And what I have learned I gambler can’t deal with emotions and feelings. It turns to an unrest, which leads to gambling again.

      How you turn or go, you’ll eventually end up gambling again.

      Unless you begin to realize that it’s an very difficult addiction to beat. Your realization can be multiplied ten times, that’s how difficult it is.

      I’m feeling worthless, that’s what it does to me. Feeling insecure, blaming everything, being negative. But that’s all inside my head. For the outside I’m just a normal guy (without any friends).

      My desperateness brought me here, as it brought me to several other places in the past, but the attempts all failed.

      I like to be positive from now on, but it’s so frickin hard.

      Dave

    • #33166
      velvet
      Moderator

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      Hello Successful and thanks for starting a thread in the Gambling Therapy forums

      Here at Gambling Therapy we pride ourselves on being a caring and diverse online community who can help and support you with the difficulties you’re currently facing. We understand that this might be a tough time for you, particularly if you’re new to recovery, so come here as often as you need to and participate in the forums, access online groups and connect to the live advice helpline if you need one to one support. We’re in this together!

      Here on the forum you can share your experiences in a safe, supportive and accepting environment. The beauty of writing it all down is that you can take your time and you will be creating a record of your progress that you can look back on if it ever feels like you’re not moving forward. So, share as much or as little as you like but do try to stick to keeping just one thread in this forum so people know where to find you if they want to be updated on your progress or share something with you.

      And on that note….

      I’m going to hand you over to our community because I’m sure they will have some words of wisdom for you 🙂

      Take care

      The Gambling Therapy Team


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    • #33167
      theone12221
      Participant

      Well the good news is that you understand yourself well. You want to stop losing, not to stop gambling. You must truly want the latter to stop. You know gambling brings you nothing but misery, you know that you cannot win. You said you’d pick winning over not playing. Trust me, everyone of us on planet earth would choose winning if that option existed. The truth is, it’s all an illusion. The real options are 1) lose everything, keep hitting rock bottoms that are deeper and deeper each time that you lose the person you are and everything important to you in your life (keep gambling) or 2) start rebuilding your life and becoming a normal/happy person again (stop gambling). Make your decision today. Only you can do it.

    • #33168
      vera
      Participant

      Dave, what “theone”says is very true.
      Every gambler wants to win but a Compulsive Gambler NEVER wins, because of the nature of the disease. We are compelled to put all our “wins” back where they came from.
      Gambling is synonymous with loss.
      We can’t have one without the other.
      Initially, I didn’t want to stop either.
      I had to stop.

    • #33169
      theone12221
      Participant

      Quitting 100% is extraordinarily difficult. I do wish you the best. One thing you must do though is to self-exclude. If you do not take this step then your mind is simply not ready to give up on gambling yet.

    • #33170
      Succesful
      Participant

      * You can win money with gambling, but not if you’re an addict. If you win, you want more, if you lose you want it back

      * The memories of winnings overwrite the memories of losing, while the frequency of the latter is higher. Crazy.

      * Your body can’t control the dopamine boost, it’s too high. That’s why you feel depressed afterwards.

      * If you lost, you will think you should’ve gambled differently. If you won and you could leave the casino, you will think of how much more you can make with your winning. You will never be satisfied. And besides the day after you will want to get the dopamine boost again.

      * If you don’t want to lose, don’t gamble

      * Keeping your money is the only way to win

      * Gambling only leads to loss

      * Gambling = loss

      * No gambling = win

      * You always win, if you don’t bet anything

      * If you like winning, then keep the money in your pocket

      * If you only lost, there wouldn’t be any fun of gambling

      * All staff members of the casino get paid with your money

      * If nobody played, there wouldn’t be any casino’s

      * Casino’s only exist because of addicts like us

      * Gambling = no fun.

      * Gambling = impatience = no success

      * Gambling = addiction

      * Addiction = brain-chemicals

      * Gambling is not about winning money

      * Imagine you would’ve won a huge amount of money. What would you do. Buy something. You’d always keep an amount to gamble more, to win more, to get more. If you’d lose that amount, you feel miserable and want to get it back, you sell everything, you put all the winnings back + MORE =EVERYTHING you OWN. You can only stop when you have ZERO left ZERO!!!

      * You’re a loser and gambling SEEMS the only way out.

      * Get control of your life, do the things you like, that’s success, not money

      * Money only leads to wanting more money, there’s no limit.

      * Gambling while you’re an addict makes no sense, you’re only wasting your time and money

      * GET YOUR LIFE BACK TOGETHER, TAKE YOUR TIME. BE PATIENT RESIST THE TEMPTATION.

      * STOPPING = NO FAILURE. YOU TRIED SOMETHING YOU FAILED, USE IT TO GET STRONGER NOT STUPID

      * YOU CAN LEARN FROM MISTAKES. DON’T LET MISTAKES CONTROL YOUR LIFE

      Get your mind straight and think twice

    • #33171
      Succesful
      Participant

      1. Gambling is the cause of indolence
      2. Gambling is addictive
      3. Gambling will not make you rich
      4. Gambling causes stress
      5. Gambling makes people rude and moody
      6. Gambling deters the persons drive to work
      7. Gambling ruins a family
      8. Gambling is fun only at first
      9. Gambling induces crimes
      10. Gambling is a bad vice

      https://gambling-gaming.knoji.com/10-reasons-why-you-should-not-gamble/

    • #33172
      Succesful
      Participant

      I’m not doing great. I actually feel depressed and worthless. Just posted a bunch of sh*t as a reminder

    • #33173
      theone12221
      Participant

      Hey Dave,

      Lists are all good but I’ve made MANY over the last 18 months, usually after a major losing session. I figured out that lists are great for turning your mood around in that moment, feel like you’re using the loss as a lesson to turn your life around…but they are almost useless for ongoing abstinence from gambling. It’s like a new years resolution…after a few weeks all that positive “change my life” energy is down the drain.

      What you need to do is take proactive action to PREVENT future relapses. Have you self-excluded from ALL of your gambling avenues? Have you installed gambling blockers if you play online? Have you restricted access to money/time for gambling? Have you confided in a loved one/attended GA or looked into someone else managing your finances? These are the true steps you need to take. Lists are great, but I get the feeling you’d still prefer winning over not playing. You need to actually not want to gamble. It’s a long journey to get there, and you need to take proactive preventative measures now if you truly want to be free from gambling.

    • #33174
      Succesful
      Participant

      Hi Theone,

      Thanks for your reply.

      I agree with what you’re saying about lists. I felt worthless and I just needed to put things on paper.

      I don’t think self-exclusion is the solution. It is in fact a blockade when you feel like gambling, but there are so many bookie. If the urge is high enough, I will just go to another city.

      I gamble most of the time at 1 bookie ( my favorite one). In the past I self-excluded myself here. But days after I just went to other one’s around the corner.

      So let’s say I self-exclude myself to all of the one’s in the area. That will make it harder to gamble, because I need to go further to gamble. But I don’t care as a gambler, I will go to the other side of the country if it’s needed. Maybe visit the real casino’s.

      The self-exclusions only last for 3 month’s. And I have to give a copy ID, which I’m just not comfortable with. I like to remain an anonymous gambler.

      Access to money is restricted since 5 years now and yet I’m able to gamble an amount each week. There were periods when I felt strong enough to take care of my own finances, which wasn’t possible. This periods I wasn’t gambling and I felt good. But when I noticed it just wasn’t possible I kinda gambled as a resist for not getting my finances back. Kinda thought: ” Then I will make my own money”.

      It’s just not fun having to ask for your own money. I’m to proud to having to ask for money. I feel ashamed a lot. Moments were I don’t have enough money on my bankcard, while I know I do have money on my financed account, is just killing me.

    • #33175
      micky
      Participant

      Hi Dave i like your lists they make alot of sense i am going to copy them and re-read them , thanks. I hope your okay and have taken theones advice but at the same time i hear what you are saying about self-excluding etc you just find some way of gambling ( like somewhere else ) it’s all down to the individual , having said that we must at least put as many barriers up as we possibly can , hope this helps 🙂

    • #33176
      Succesful
      Participant

      Hi Micky,

      I’m glad you find the lists useful.

      Yeah it’s true about the barriers. Maybe I’ll think about it.

      The last half year I’ve been feeling very dissatisfied with myself. Not knowing what I really want and blaming people and the fact I can’t control my own finances was just making me frustrated. That’s why I had a huge relapse in november/december 2015 and till now I really can’t get out . I’m now on the right way.

      I’m busy to find out what I want in life and what could make me happy. I think that’s the key for having a life without gambling and be happy about it.

      I’ll keep you updated

      Dave

    • #33177
      theone12221
      Participant

      Hey Dave,

      Just wanted to say keep going strong, I’m glad you’re on the up. Sorry for being a bit blunt in my previous post but all I can say is that whilst lists may not work for myself in stopping gambling totally, it may work for you, and are definitely great in general for a bit of self-motivation/discipline.

      I guess I was trying to give you a bit of tough love! It’s because it’s so damn hard to stop gambling. One of the greatest hurdles to overcoming it is in fact ourselves and changing our mindset. We can’t make any excuses. We can’t say one avenue is “too much of a hassle” or “will make me feel embarrassed/ashamed/lose my ego”. We need to let go of our egos and even in many cases make sacrifices if we truly want to stop gambling. Yes, the gambler will always find a way to gamble if he/she really tries, but if that person tried as hard to put blocks in place in the first place…then the chances of relapsing are so much smaller.

      As a throwaway (perhaps exaggerated) example:

      Gambler A may say: Sure I can self-exclude from A, B & C but there’s D, E and F that’s just an hour further drive. I’m embarrassed to self-exclude from so many venues. I don’t want to be someone feels like I cannot even control myself in doing something knowingly stupid and losing large amounts of money.

      Gambler B: I’ll drive to D, E and F now and proactively self-exclude because I can foresee myself gambling in those venues as an alternative in the future. I’ll man up and take a hit to my pride/ego and just go through with it. These bookies self-exclude people all the time there’s nothing to be ashamed of it. I’ll return periodically to renew my exclusions if I feel like I’m still in danger. I’ll accept that I cannot control myself, in this aspect. I still have self-respect and self-worth in myself, but I accept that this addiction requires extreme measures and I know regardless of how small a chance I will gamble, any 1 relapse can be absolutely devastating. I will pay my “insurance” now in any manner possible to prevent that big relapse later.

      I know it’s a far-fetched example and doesn’t apply for everyone. Everyone’s different, have their own triggers/urges, varying abilities to control themselves in different aspects etc. But we all understand why we do the things we do – regardless of how hard that is to accept. As addicts it is up to us to find out what are triggers/urges are, what our routes and avenues for gambling are, and do everything in our power proactively to prevent any future gambling whatsoever. This may involve sacrificing a bit of ourselves in the present, swallowing our pride a bit, but the ultimate reward will be well worth it.

      Now many people don’t need to do this, they can get over it just by themselves using simply measures and self-control/self-discipline. If you can do that, great work, you’re a lot stronger mentally than the majority of the CGs out there. But for many of us, simply convincing ourselves and putting in “normal” or even occasionally token preventative measures is actually not enough. The addiction WANTS us to think that these methods are enough, even though deep down we realize that the risk is still very high. Drastic measures are needed or we will just keep relapsing over and over again, sinking lower and lower every time. Look deep within yourself and honestly assess what level of proactive action is needed, and then take those precautions. It’s taken me many, countless relapses and days of reflection to realise the extent that the addiction has control over me, regardless of how long I’d been clean or how much my mind “felt” more in control. The addiction made countless excuses for me – and almost every single one of those excuses led to a relapse later down the track. Literally every time I thought “Hey X might possibly be a danger in the future…” but then bargained with myself that I’ll be fine or that it was a “negligible risk” –> it bit me in the back later on. I’ve learnt to take extraordinary preventative and proactive measures that would literally make myself from 5 years ago cringe (“what an absolute degen loser, how could I even not be able to control myself from self-destruction”) – but I gotta do it because I don’t wanna live in the shadow of gambling for the rest of my life, because that’s a life of regrets and self-torture.

      Now if setting life goals is all that you need and you can stop forever that’s absolutely fantastic. Just don’t forget (especially if you’re struggling or feeling a moment of weakness leading to a strong gambling urge) that complete prevention through proactive, “over the top” measures may be an extremely useful temporary vehicle to get you safely that place where you become a completely normal person again who doesn’t engage in destructive gambling. It’s kind of like people who check into those gambling addiction centres – that period where it is literally physically impossible for them to gamble may be just what they need to make that mental transition into a non-problem gambler. Sometimes the only way to not do something is if we simply cannot do it – the human brain can be incredibly irrational and stubborn at times! The ultimate goal is mental freedom but as I haven’t achieved that yet I cannot comment on it – all I know is that blocks/restrictions on gambling has saved me at least 5 figures, if not 6 figures of further losses in gambling. Not having these big relapses have in turn helped me go a long way towards achieving that ultimate mental freedom.

    • #33178
      Succesful
      Participant

      Hi Steven,

      Thanks for your post. It does make a lot of sense, as you speak out of experience.

      There’s a change in the thoughts which turn you in to the gambler again, without you even noticing. Only one moment can ruin it all.

      I have my finance managed, but even though I still have gambled quite an amount the last 8 months. I have counted the smaller amounts which I had access to and I can conclude I have gambled around 2500.

      It’s crazy, it doesn’t feel this way, most of the time I gambled around 50. Crazy how it accumulates. Can you imagine how much I would’ve lost if I had access to my managed bank-account.

      I told myself 8 months ago that I was ready to control my own finances again and the reason why I gambled was because they didn’t let me get my finance back.

      It would probably go right at the start if I did get my finance bank, as I was doing great. But now I know it was a good thing that I didn’t get it, because there’s only one weak moment needed to go bankrupt.

      Being aware of that, I’m glad my money is being taken care of.

      Stupid brain

    • #33179
      C_Noel
      Participant

      Believe in yourself that you CAN stop. I am struggling with that now. I am afraid that I will have the urge to gamble and be unable to control myself once that urge hits. I have self-excluded from two casinos. I was able to get into them. Unfortunately, it isn’t that strict. I think self-exclusion is a great tool but for some, it may just mean being sneaky. There are probably 6 more casinos which I need to self-exclude and take the time to do, and yes I feel shame and embarrassment but I want to get better. I’ll do whatever it takes to kick this addiction or else I will dig so deep that my problems will be even worse.

      Recently, I gambled my last money. It’s gone and quite frankly, I don’t know how I will survive the upcoming 10 days. I handed over my finances (yet again) to my sister and decided to make a list of goals I need to accomplish. I feel good about this. It’s time. I hope you find the strength you need as I hope I do as well!

    • #33180
      Succesful
      Participant

      Thanks for your post.

      All these preventive actions only limits the damage a gambler can create. While it’s more important to take away the will to gamble (for good!). Self-exclusion doesn’t fix a gamblers problem.

      The problem takes place in the head. The brains are changed so badly that it just seems impossible to stay away from the slots.

      You can say we’re chronically ill and that preventive actions need to stay forever(!), but what kind of life is that. It doesn’t seem so enjoyable.

      Most of the time it goes wrong when a gambler gets his finances back in hands. Not necessary immediately, it can take days, weeks, months, years. The only solutions seems to never(!) get you finances back in hands.

      I want my freedom and privacy and sometimes it feels like I’m trapped because of the fact I can’t control my own finances.

      Wish there could’ve been a medicine to heal this addiction. I’m considering taking antidepressants.

      At he moment I just can’t enjoy things, I don’t have the energy to do anything. The time just ticks away and with every hour it just kills me that I haven’t been able to do anything. I wake up and before I know the day has ended. I’m so slow and I take care of myself badly

      I’m so weak at the moment. I made a 12 step program to have a clearer vision of who I am and what I want in life. I just cant live to it. It doesn’t change anything about my mood.

      There’s so much more going on with me; I’m depressive, maybe I’m a bit autistic and I have fear of commitment. I don’t have friends, I do not like to talk with family. When I’m with colleagues I just don’t know what to say . I’m dissatisfied with myself, with the choices I made.

      So there are plenty of times when I just think; **** it all, I’m going to gamble. And after that I even feel worse, because now I’m a loser whose broke as well.

    • #33181
      charles
      Moderator

      Hi Successful,

      You are right of course, self exclusion and other barriers aren’t the total answer to addiction. What they do though is give us breathing space.

      What 12 step program are you using? Are you going to Gamblers Anonymous meetings?

      You mention anti- depressants? Are those something that your doctor have recommended?

      Those barriers don’t have to be in place forever, theya re important in the early days though so that we can find new habits, find new thigns to fill our time, start addressing any underlying issues, start work on recovery and addressing any character traits that need addressing.

      Yes, I believe that we are always going to be addicts. Recovery means though that those urges get less frequent, get weaker. We can live with addiction without acting on it.

      Make a plan for your days. If your 12 step programme is too dauntig then make achieveable plans. They are more likely to happen. Keep posting and let us know the steps you are taking.

    • #33182
      Succesful
      Participant

      Thanks for your post.

      It’s not a GA-meeting that I’m attending. Well I’ve been to 2 meetings months ago, but it just wasn’t my thing at that moment. Maybe I’ll go back later on.

      It’s a 12-step to live life in a better way and to understand what I want in my life. I kind of put it together by myself (copy&paste from different websites) and ironically it became 12 steps.

      The doctor didn’t prescribe me anything, but I am feeling so depressive at the moment that the thoughts of taking anti-depressants came up. Of course I will first see my doctor for advice.

      In a few days I’ll go on a vacation for a couple of days. This sure can do me good, as I’m in a horrible state at the moment.

      Till then I wont be posting anything as I’m pretty occupied.

      I will let you know more after I’m back and post the 12-steps as well.

    • #33183
      Succesful
      Participant

      I’m back from vacation and I’ve made a head-start, not been gambling for seven days. I feel much better and I hope it stays this way.

    • #33184
      Succesful
      Participant

      Step 1: Compliment Yourself

      Step 2: Stop Making Excuses

      Step 3: Let Go of Anger ( sum up all the things that can make you angry and can lead to gambling)

      Step 4: Practice Forgiveness ( Try to forgive the things or people you’re mad about)

      Step 5: Forgive yourself

      Step 6: Own your talents proudly

      Step 7: determine your values

      Step 8: Examine what you believe about yourself

      Step 9: Examine your behavior thoroughly and honestly

      Step 10: Determine what changes you want to see

      Step 11: Set goals for yourself

      Step 12: Frame goals positively

    • #33185
      Succesful
      Participant

      As I’m not happy with my home situation at the moment, I had an huge urge today. I wanted to gamble and I was planning my trip to it, but I didn’t had the time at that moment.

      Later on the urge got less, but still had alternate thoughts about going to the bookies. Then came the moment I made the decision to not go to the bookie, but buy a scratch card.

      I hurried my way to the supermarket as it was almost closing-time. (Unfortunately!) they already had clear away the scratch-cards. The girl at the cash-desk suggested to call someone who could get the scratchcards If I wanted. I felt a bit ashamed of myself and I just said no it’s fine.

      Then I drove for an hour and a half just mixed feelings just because I just didn’t know what to do. I didn’t want to gamble, but I had nothing to do and I was dissatisfied.

      So I’ve mad it to day 8, but it’s not like I’m feeling really happy about it. I couldn’t care if I did go gambling as there’s nothing to look forward to.

    • #33186
      Succesful
      Participant

      I hadn’t smoke for 6 days, but today when I rushed my way to the supermarket I did get cigarettes. So my smoke-free time went up in smoke as I just didn’t know what to do.

    • #33187
      charles
      Moderator

      Hi Successful, how was your weekend? It sounds like you struggled when you had nothing to do? What are your plans for tomorrow? There is a lot of life after gambling.

    • #33188
      Pea
      Participant

      I just wanted to say i got a lot out of reading this thread today. its a struggle for sure. Well done on the time not gambling and i love all the things posted here. You never know when you are helping someone

      Pea

    • #33189
      Succesful
      Participant

      I could’ve been gambling free for 55 days now, but of course that’s not what happened. I lost myself and looked for consolation at the bookies. Week in, week out. Don’t remember much actually, I just know it hasn’t worked for me and it’s not the solution. It never was.

    • #33190
      Succesful
      Participant

      During the gambling experience we’ve managed to get the idea that gambling can lead to winning. We’ve experienced winning. We know its possible. Before we started gambling it was just a try. We were curious what will happen, while knowing people said gambling is bad. When we did win, we didn’t understand the thought that gambling was bad, until we made our first (big) loss.

      There’s one mindset that makes it easier to stop gambling and that’s “winning is worse”. Our experience has thought us that we can win gambling, but as we’re recovering gambling addicts we know that it actually leads to losing everything.

      Why winning is worse. Because this only leads to more emotional pain and more time loss. If winning is worse and we gamble to win, then we’re trapped. This means we gamble to feel worse. Every time we gamble we feel worse and that’s also the reality.

      A gambling-session only stops when you’re broke. The moments you leave a casino with money, you’re still in a rush. You cannot focus and cannot sleep, you go back the next day and lose it all.

    • #33191
      Succesful
      Participant

      Normal people would say that, but since we’ve experienced winning we got addicted. We know winning is possible and that’s the problem. Forget your gambling winnings, because if you’d like to be normal you have to live with the thought that gambling is a losing game and that’s also the reality

    • #33192
      Succesful
      Participant

      Self-pity is the worst thing you can do to yourself. Don’t blame others for the situation you’re in. It has been your mistake. Sure there are things in life that didn’t go as you planned, but that doesn’t mean you can act like a victim of it.

      There are situations in life that aren’t the way they supposed to be, things turn out differently, the bad times in life; like break ups or getting fired. You don’t choose it to happen, you wanted to see it differently. That’s when self-pity comes in action. Yeah, but blahblahblah….

      Life is a mysterious given and some things you just don’t have control of. Like a slotmachine 🙂

      When we made the mistake to gamble and got addicted, we didn’t choose to. But if we just have self-pity all the time, we’re never getting out of it. We can’t control the past, but we can get control of the future. I feel stupid now that it has had a hold on me for so many years. How could I’ve let that happen. It was all self-pity.

      Gambling steals years of your life. There was a day I felt good and was planning to do some homework (I’m still a student). I found it hard to realize what a mess I left behind since the last time I studied. I’ve neglected it so badly that it was so hard to start again. No wonder why I kept escaping. Every time I did escape things just got worse, never better. Why run away from things. If you just take actions immediately, it will safe you a lot of stress.

      Many people have been before me. They lived the gambling life and now they try to warn the people who are now in the gambling trap and they advice you to stop it.

      Ignorant and addicted as we are, we just can’t listen to it. The addiction goes with a feeling of superiority (It wont happen to me) and superstition (tactics).

      I’ve been gambling for nine years now. Why didn’t it work for me till now. Why would it be different this time.

      The addiction wins from wisdom and gives an idea that your moment still has to come. Someday I will win X amount, maybe today?

      And every time it becomes clear that it doesn’t work like that.

      If you win, you want to win more and if you lose, you want to win it back. Remember that. This has been the reason why I’ve been struggling gambling for nine years. There have been moments (very few) that I did accidentally win, but looking at the frequency of it, it’s nothing compared to what I’ve been gambling.

      Sometimes the self-pity comes in play again and you gamble like it owes you something. It owes you nothing! The slot didn’t remember your face and you don’t have an advantage this time.

      Reasons to keep gambling during a session;
      – Rush
      – Short moments to decide
      – Not the ability to think straight
      – Wanting to win more
      – Spend some more time. An addict cares more about keeping the slots spinning, then paying out, these are moments when the nerves come in play, and if you do win after the excitement, the human body rewards you with dopamine. Isn’t that fantastic !?

    • #33193
      Succesful
      Participant

      There have been many before me. You’re not different, you’re not superior. For nine years you have been fooled, enough is enough. The chance of winning is just too small. The odds are against you. Even with such a turnover, there’s a risk for a casino’s to make losses, because of the many costs. Think of the salaries, electricity, maintenance and the cleaning.

      Our goal is to learn to love living life again (without any addiction), otherwise you won’t be able to stop the addiction.

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