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    michelle64
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     My whole attitude to gambling has changed
     

    I can remember my very first bet
    It’s a memory that’s hard to forget
    I can recall the buzz, time and place
    A thrill other things couldn’t replace
     
    Gambling then gave me a lot of fun
    With beginner’s luck I actually won
    I was a happy bunny when winning
    But loses sent my head spinning
    Within me there was a constant fight
    Was gambling for me wrong or right?
    Within me there was a love/hate romance
    But with gambling I had to take my chance
     
     
    Escaping to gamble was important for me
    I really didn’t want to be gamble free
    Life’s problems I didn’t want to face
    I felt comfortable in the gambling place
     
    When I was in my active gambling mode
    My rational thinking I always put on hold
    I didn’t stop to consider right or wrong
    I acted on the cravings that were strong
     
    For me the urges to gamble were intense
    I’d do things so gambling could commence
    I would lie, cheat, manipulate and steal
    To finance the addiction I tried to conceal
     
     
    I can honestly say I didn’t gamble to win
    I gambled to escape and get a buzz within
    I know I couldn’t press the button to collect
    Having money to gamble for me was perfect
     
     
    But the loses became more and more for me
    I had to give up my compulsive gambling spree
    I truly felt that gambling was no fun anymore
    ‘I am going to give up gambling’ – I often swore
     
    I felt I couldnt live with gambling in my life at all
    And without gambling I wouldn’t cope and I’d fall
    I began to ask myself was giving up a right decision
    With the loses and pain there was a clear vision
     
     
    It was a process that I wanted to go through
    For me giving up gambling was very easy to do
    What was very hard for me was staying stopped
    That was until the GA programe I began to adopt
     
     
    I had tried to give up my terrible gambling my way
    But only the ‘GA way’ helped me not to go and play
    By connecting with other CGs at my local group
    I am no longer walking in and out of gambling poop
     
     
    Going to my meetings now gives me the same frill
    That gambling did in my life before it began to kill
    I now gain alot from every new and existing member
    Listening to their shares helps me to remember
     
     
    I try now to remember that the past is behind me
    And reflecting too much on it is not meant to be
    But it is good to share my experiences of gambling
    Because each day my mixed up mind is unscrabbling
     
     
    My whole attitude towards gambling has changed
    Without gambling I no longer feel deranged
    I know that I don’t need it in my life today
    And with the help of GA it can be kept at bay
     
     
    Michelle (2012)– 30/11/2012 16:28:48: post edited by harry.– 11/30/2012 6:01:14 PM: post edited by michelle64.

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