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      Hi All, I’m a blackjack addict, 26 years old , single and have a decent job and living alone in a foreign country. I’d like to share my story and hopefully receive some thoughts and reduce the depression i’m feeling right now. I started playing blackjack 4 years ago when I heard from a friend that we can beat the casino, I study and learned the basic strategy, Hi-lo card counting (though, never applied this 100% of my game) and some betting system. I started with a small bankroll from my salary, that was about 300-500 dollars and start betting 10-50 dollars on blackjack. For more than 4 years, I became lucky with my gambling career (was able to buy drinks, gadgets, consoles, watches, appliances or treat my friends and travel) and can always get back on my losses. I was able to build a bankroll which sum up to 75,000 dollars. Life is so good, I can buy and eat anything without looking at the price tag. I feel like i discover a way to beat the casinos but still i am fully aware that someday my luck will end. So what I did is, I’d buy something for me whenever I won and if not deposit the same amount i lost from gambling to my local bank account. This method helped me control the money i spent in gambling and proves that overall i’m still up over the casino. However, the worst night has come… my luck has run out.. bad cards are drawn.. I lost control and bet more chips to chase my losses.. Now i’m feeling depressed and down as I’ve lost a lot of money today and can’t accept the fact that i lost my mind. I was not able to do the routine, no money transferred to my local account, I played no limit, become careless and lost my 75,000 dollars bankroll and have nothing left on my pocket except for a 50 dollar note. I still have my savings on my local account but it feels like all my hard-work in gambling for the past years are wasted. Right now, I’m thinking that I just didn’t play well and just made a big mistake. A part of me still believes that if only i have enough bankroll then i can still get back my losses. How do you handle this situation, please help!

    • #28484


      Hello and thanks for starting a thread in the Gambling Therapy forums

      Here at Gambling Therapy we pride ourselves on being a caring and diverse online community who can help and support you with the difficulties you’re currently facing. We understand that this might be a tough time for you, particularly if you’re new to recovery, so come here as often as you need to and participate in the forums, access online groups and connect to the live advice helpline if you need one to one support. We’re in this together!

      Here on the forum you can share your experiences in a safe, supportive and accepting environment. The beauty of writing it all down is that you can take your time and you will be creating a record of your progress that you can look back on if it ever feels like you’re not moving forward. So, share as much or as little as you like but do try to stick to keeping just one thread in this forum so people know where to find you if they want to be updated on your progress or share something with you.

      And on that note….

      I’m going to hand you over to our community because I’m sure they will have some words of wisdom for you 🙂

      Take care

      The Gambling Therapy Team

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    • #28485

      hello… i know this situation…

      You have 2 Options.

      1. Try to get it back with gambling ( wich will probably ruin and destroy your life)

      2. Stop gambling forever ( wich will give you a happy relaxed life with alot of money)

      You had 75k and you coudnt stop! Why you think you will stop when you have it back? You would lose everything one day again because you will never have enought.
      Big wins are the worst for a gambler!
      He will keep hes illusion that gambling provides him someting.
      The truth is – Gambling is the cause of the misery.
      We have been brainwashed.
      Gambling provides us NOTHING good at all.

      Please read my topic “Help can’t get enought” too read how i stopped permanently.
      I dont have the desire anymore to gamble!
      I know its hard that u lost 75k… But you can be happy that you havent made debts in this moment or lost your home etc. etc.

      I hope that my text can help you…



    • #28486

      I AM YOUR FUTURE,… I am 10 years older than you and today i landed here, on this site, hoping that someone can help me leave this nightmare called gambling.
      I dont think I have the power to do it on my own.
      The gambling has left me socially isolated, still single, not a dime on my bank account right now, working as an unskilled laborer, even if I was
      a manager before, lying to everybody and with my hair turning white before its time.
      So, please consider “gambling” as the “man” who is interviewing you for a job and asking you : “How do you see yourself in ten years, still working with us???”
      Every player has a system and every hopeless gambler thinks he can win back his losses, I should know, i am one.
      I hope that you will be smarter than me and stop, just stop.
      By the way, I lost my last money just a few hours ago, at Blackjack.

      Take Care


    • #28487

      Hi Robb

      Have you considered starting your own thread for your own support.

      This link will take you to the guides for the site.

      Take Care

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