19 January 2023 at 7:05 pm #169887cas93Participant
I started from a young age playing small amount of money at a lotto stores, always play little amount to try and win big amount… This never happened then started playing big amounts to win little which still always finished on the losing side.
i starting playing online casino which in this moment i start losing all of my control as when i lose i put more money to win all my lost money, and when I win i inform myself that i should stop but then want to place the last bet, then again, and again till all the money are lost.
When i do not have anymore money I say no more gambling but once my salary arrives I immediately log in on a casino website. I tried to close accounts but when I have money in my hands i try to find another online casino to do so.
I started to work 2-3 jobs so in my mind i say i will earn what I lost but then immediately the income will be put in gambling. Instead I go buy the thing that i need I place the money on casino to say I will buy it with the winnings but that never happens.
I start hating myself, always sad and angry and feel guilty what I could had done with all that money that was lost. I cannot accept that the money is gone and always playing to get them back but then always increase the losing money
I lie to family members as they lent me money to work on my future house but instead work on the house i start splashing them on betting.
Is there anyone that can went past this experience and have some guidance how to control themselves instead of playing or what to do to stop playing.
19 January 2023 at 7:05 pm #169910charlesModerator
Hello and thanks for starting a thread in the Gambling Therapy forums
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