31 May 2023 at 8:49 am #177122degeneratetoafaultParticipant
As low as low gets…former drug addict turned gambling addict who has now lost it all. My fiancée was diagnosed with brain cancer in March of 2023…during our time at the hospital after seeing ad after ad for online casinos I made my way into online blackjack. Winning a few bucks here and there helped bring in donuts and snacks for the nurses during our stay. Little did I know it would turn into a full fledged addiction, an addiction that would be worse then any benzo or opiate problem in existence. March, April, May have came and went with weekly hospital and doctor visits and still no answers or progress to our Cancer problem. All along while my warrior fiancée is fighting for her life I’m gambling away every penny l’ve ever had and taking multiple loans out with a plan to pay back not realizing I’ve just created a hole can no longer climb out of. Ive managed to ruin it all from the seat of my cell phone, I didn’t have to step foot into one casino or lender… the internet and my cell device powered it all. I work a 9-5 and each day I am trying to plot on how to come up with another dollar just to survive. Ive ran out of borrowing power and Ive finally hit the wall of defeat. My fiancée has no idea where I am financially and how I will not be able to help her is daunting on my soul. Bills are piling, food is scarce and I’ve sold all I can sell just to get us rent. I was blinded by the chase of getting back the money I lost the first couple weeks back from the hospital…it has now spiraled into another beast on its own. Gambling has ruined my life, I have ruined my life… trial by fire has been a motto for me but this one takes the cake. I don’t need the money for me, I need it for her. This is as pathetic as one man could be and I know that…im just stabbing at the dark at this point…I guess a gamblers chance the irony…
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31 May 2023 at 8:53 am #177161DuncKeymaster
Hello and thanks for starting a thread in the Gambling Therapy forums.
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