[thewizefox]

Words don’t describe how I feel, the week from he’ll where I now realise how gambling and can destroy what was good do quick.

I had a been in a steady job for 18 months, life was manageable and I was happy, I was speaking with family and getting on just fine. The I woke up with a purpose and enjoyed the day to day life.
I worked as a taxi driver I loved the my job so much, I loved getting up to work.
One morning I had a letter from council saying my license had been revoked, I had to get solicitors in it was a very good stressful time, and I didn’t want to lose my job.
I managed to keep my job bit new the council had it in for a me so I found out last week, I had had licensed revoked again for not using the meter, I’m not go in g to dribble on but I new it wasn’t a going to be easy, I had decided not to appeal, sad day and and my life had turned I was angry, and bitter, and very anxious and couldn’t find sleep, and what am I going to do next week why me, I loved the job it had turned my life in the right direction.
Since that day the mass destruction of has been severe, I’ve gambled over ten k in three days lost my car and sold many items, it doesn’t feel like it ‘s real, I’ve let myself and down and will have hurt many others to when they find out, I felt like I had failed again, I mean righting the thus now and and I feel like I’ve lost my a part of me, I’m scared of the the future of as I don’t know no what it holds, my life and has turned upside down down to so quick it feels painful to say but that’ the truth,.
I sit here tonight feeling extremely well guilty of and ashamed of what I have done, and I may well have lost the closest people who around me and that hurts the most, gambling is an evil addiction that should not be used for escapism, from ones problem’s, I will need to sit here tonight and look to what I can do going forward, and I have a applied for residential and treatment of today, I’ve told no one what is going on I’m scared of of their reaction……..

[maverick.]

Thewisefox, really sorry to hear about your situation and the trouble you are in, I am a compulsive gambler also and really do understand and feel your pain, this addiction takes everything if we let it my friend, I have read your post and if it was me (I know its not) we both know moving forward gambling will destroy us but when you have got yourself back on track what about starting up a private hire/chauffer business by yourself, I have a friend who does it after being a taxi driver and he does alot of long distance and airport runs and now makes a very good living out of it, anyway just wanted to wish you well and give you some support.

Just take your time to address everything and dont do anything rash, keep fighting this evil addiction and as always one day at a time, stay strong and keep sharing in the end all will be well.

Wishing you all the very best.

Maverick

[thewizefox]

Hi thanks for taking time to reply, I appreciate your reply, my head is in a real mess at moment, but can’t think of what I can do to make it better to

[maverick.]

Rest, relax and sleep on it, it is always better in the morning, easy to say but rest and look at things tomorrow, keep sharing and posting how you feel and are doing I will post as much as I can to you and you will get through this, just for today relax your mind and we can pick up things tomorrow.

Take care and speak soon.

Maverick

[thewizefox]

Cannot bring myself to even get out of bed, and really feeling in despair, i hope I feel better next week….

[i-did-it]

Hi Wisefox, I am sorry to hear you are feeling so bad . It’s time to use the serenity prayer . There are things u cannot change but must accept like losing your licence , losing your money and losing your car.

You messed up ! That’s makes you like every other person who uses this forum Including me . It’s the most horrible feeling in the world but it will pass.

Next part of the prayer – please find the courage to get out of bed. Get outside in the fresh air. Get yourself a cup of coffee and start to plan what u can do. There is something particularly indulgent about drinking coffee outside in the air. It kinda lifts the spirits .

One thing you can do is stop gambling . You know This because you have done it before . Let go the losses . Put into place what u need to .

There will be jobs going – not very glamorous ones maybe but you can work a lot of hours and make enough to get yourself on the road with a car again. U can do it . U are an intelligent resourceful person.

Let it go Wisefox and think what u can change and dig deep and find the courage to do what you need to do .

I will be praying the serenity prayer for you .

[vera]

I can understand how you feel, Wisefox. I had a similar , sudden loss last March 2015. I won’t bore you with the details. Suffice to say , I just failed to function. I was in shock, as you are now. Stay wrapped up until you are able to move. It took me a full week. I just could not face anyone. That is where Support sites like GT help. A member here suggested I would formulate a PLAN to save even a small amout of money every month to restore my loss. I clung on the the word “PLAN”. Somehow, if kept me sane.
Roll on to September 2016…that plan is in action still and I have half of my loss restored.
Of, course if I had continued gambling, I would not be writing this post.
Take care Wisefox. You will recover. Shock wears off and in time you will come back to yourself and hopefully, set down your own PLAN. It saved me when I was at a very low ebb. Stay focussed.

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