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    no soul
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    Hi to one and all. I have been plagued by this gambling illness ever since I was five. All my child hood memories are gambling related. Gambling is the only thing that I have lived and breathed for the past 35 years. It has dominated, controlled and made me who I am today ( a worthless nobody). It has made me bankrupt twice, put me in a mental institution, taken my sanity and left me destroyed, confused and soul less. I have tried suicide on a couple of occasions, but unfortunately still around. I have been in and out of GA for the last 23 years often attending twice a week. I have tried CBT, trained Councillors, hypnosis, the list is endless. No one can help or maybe its a question of I can’t succeed. In a last ditch attempt to save me from the mortuary slab, I have applied to GM for rehab, but my negativity and past tells me that not even this can help me arrest this baffling and insidious disease. My Demons tell me that there is no hope left, I’m consumed by this illness, it will not let me be free, I should carry on and destroy myself. As most of us are probably aware, we genuinely believe that the problem is the solution. Can GM really help or am I just a lost cause? Thanks in advance for any replies. Kind Regards No Soul baz

    #8987
    Dunc
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    Hi No Soul
    The simple answer to can GM help is yes and I’m living proof of this.  I like you had been to GA & Counselling previously without success.
    I like you questioned why nothing was working and in all honesty for me the answer lay in the fact id spent so many years trying so hard to find a pathway to recovery I started to think I was a lost cause and that belief / thought kept me from truly working recovery.
    No Soul, you’re not a lost cause, If you truly want recovery forget what you’ve done in the past; use your energy and commitment to take you through GMA. GMA isn’t like some may think an easy option if anything its possibly one of the hardest but most rewarding experiences of my life.
    No Soul, I went into GM 7+ years ago; a broken man with a gambling life spanning 25 of my then 37 years…  I’m now just over 7 years clean, my whole life has changed, I’ve changed… give GM your best shot, forget what you’ve tried, don’t worry why it didn’t work you can explore that once you are here
    I can honestly say if i hadn’t been for GMA I doubt id have found the life ive found… a contented happy life
    Take Care
    Harry
    25 year poker player, 25 year Hierarchal fool, 25 year ego boost…  Intellectualisation was my down fall, simplicity was my salvation

    #8988
    denise83
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    I hope I do not offend you, but I want to speak positive things to you so instead of calling you no soul, I’ve changed it to (know soul).  I just want you to know that you are not battling this thing alone.  We are here to motivate and encourage you that there is a better life out there for us all.  I am still battling this thing and I’ve been going to the casino since I was 21 and now is 30.  My mom love the slots and introduced me.  I remember playing $60 and having a great time… now my minimum is $300-500 plus. Don’t know how I got there and only see it getting worse so I reached out just like you.  You definitely have a purpose here and you have the proof to show it.  Hang in there!!! I will pray for us all:)  What I have noticed there is an underlying problem to why I enjoy gambling so much.  My social life sucks and I believe that this is the reason for my habit.  Do you have an idea regarding you?serenity prayer

    #8989
    denise83
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    I hope I do not offend you, but I want to speak positive things to you so instead of calling you no soul, I’ve changed it to (know soul).  I just want you to know that you are not battling this thing alone.  We are here to motivate and encourage you that there is a better life out there for us all.  I am still battling this thing and I’ve been going to the casino since I was 21 and now is 30.  My mom love the slots and introduced me.  I remember playing $60 and having a great time… now my minimum is $300-500 plus. Don’t know how I got there and only see it getting worse so I reached out just like you.  You definitely have a purpose here and you have the proof to show it.  Hang in there!!! I will pray for us all:)  What I have noticed there is an underlying problem to why I enjoy gambling so much.  My social life sucks and I believe that this is the reason for my habit.  Do you have an idea regarding you?serenity prayer

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