[Losttwat]

I watch him shouting at the machine
for all that’s gone wrong and ever will be
For his loneliness
for his guilt
his shame
Plus other things he dare not name
An angry man, yet I understand, I simply want to hold his hand.
Yet he’s too far gone to look at me, I’m not the success he wants to see. I’m rather imperfect, I’m rather weak
I give and give yet rob myself blind
self harming via this autoplay
Just more losing of body and mind

[Losttwat]

Please feel free

[charles]

Great poem LT, very powerful’

Now take a breath and go and look at the Friends and family Forum – you can get a lot of support there. Check out the group schedule as well.

Whatever he does/doesn’t do there is a lot of support available for YOU. You are important.

[Losttwat]

Thank you Charles. I think I’ll be ok I promise xxx

[Lisa McCoy]

Such a beautiful poem!

[Anonymous]

I’m not the success he wants to see. I’m rather imperfect, I’m rather weak

[dwight]

Excellent poem!

[markwi27]

Awesome!

[Losttwat]

It’s lost twat again
Hello all x

[charles]

Hi LT and welcome back. Maybe now is the time to take a look at the Friends and Family Forum? You could start your own thread and let us know how things have been since you wrote your poem. Or pop into one of the groups for a chat.

[Losttwat]

Hi Charles. Thank you. I’m not ready to be honest. I have to work work work because I’m in a bit of a hole. I think I can get out but things haven’t been great. In fact life has been very difficult not because of the gambling but the gambling has been the cherry on top of the shit cake. May I ask if you used to have a gambling problem Charles? I’m just interested in terms of your perception and the conceptual stories you have flashing before your eyes. More poetry soon… LT

[Losttwat]

No good time here.

It’s an expensive can of coke
The biscuits I threw to the gulls
I used to drink the complementary hot chocolate back when I feigned a carefree demeanor
What’s to say that hasn’t been said
To see my loved one nearly dead
Not just once but twice since December
The slots hypnotise
Yet then I remember
If I had a head start
To clear the two overdrafts
Then a little win on top
I’d get some new bras from M&S
UPLIFTED I might then stop.
Loving that man with all of my might honestly made things worse
That’s another story a totally different verse.
The plan right now is to take a bow then a seat whilst I recoup through hard labour.
Once I’m straight I’ll try my luck but not til then my dears.
Thank you for reading… I hope you all win with love conquering fear.

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