questioning my own sanity

[Briana]

Hello! I am new to this, but all the advice I seem to find says to “love” yourself and get support… So here I am.

I have been in a serious relationship for 7 years with a CG. I figured out gambling was an issue about a year into it, but I chose to ignore it, thinking it will get better. I was already a single mother when we got together and I did not want to go back to that. As time went on, it got worse of course. Quick run down, In the past 7 years, our family grew and he left me at 8 weeks pregnant, came back 5 months later, now we have a 2 yr old, got engaged then broke it off, I bought a house for us, he started his own company, then that failed and now works full time.
Now he is gone…again… for the 5000 time. I think I have kicked him out 20 or more times in 7 years, not counting the times he just left. I am so lost. I feel alone and crazy really. He did everything to run away and gamble. On top of dealing with the gambling there has been other women in and out of this relationship, between kicking him out and taking him back. Did he sleep with them? I think so, even when I was pregnant and alone, he was out picking up women, getting drunk and gambling. I feel like this whole thing was a lie, everything. Its like I/we never meant anything to him and we still don’t. All I get from him is that I am a ” crazy b***h, I am stupid, lazy, too controlling, too negative” I am always to blame. I just do not know where to pick up the pieces of my life. ANY advice is appreciated.

[Dunc]

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Hello

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