3 September 2014 at 3:56 pm #7654hughesy609Participant
I could really do with some support…
I have been gambling since the age of 10 when going on family holidays with my parents to the seaside, ever since then growing up all I have wanted to do in my spare time is gamble, whether it be at the fair or in the local bowling alley, I would make every attempt to find somewhere to gamble.
Throughout growing up this lead to bookmakers, then casinos then to online gambling, most recently I have started gsmbling on football which I have never done as my love of the game has always stopped me doing it.
About 8 months ago I went to the casino one night and spent a large sum of money, the first thing I did when I got back was tell my girlfriend of the problem I have had. She’s was really supportive (given the wonderful person she is) and when looking through accounts as to how much I had spent in the last three months alone she was shocked…
She advised she would support me however if I ever did it again she would leave, 3 months passed and I did not gamble and felt great. Then slowly but surely I started gambling again until it turned into a bigger problem than it ever has been before. So much so I received a back dates VAT payment into my account (that was due to the tax office) and I spent it gambling.
I know I shouldn’t have done it but couldn’t help myself, the urge was too great and I feel like I have been completely taken over, I sit here shaking at the thought of what I am going and the guilt of how the money I have wasted could of been spent on me and my wonderful partner doing things together.
I am now in fear if I owe up my partner will leave me.
I am a successful person in all other aspects of my life but this beast has taken over and I do not know how to get it out my life.
Your comments on previous, similar experiences would be greatly appreciated.
Thanks,4 September 2014 at 10:01 am #7655janey1Participant
Hello and thanks for starting a thread in the Gambling Therapy forums
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Here on the forum you can share your experiences in a safe, supportive and accepting environment. The beauty of writing it all down is that you can take your time and you will be creating a record of your progress that you can look back on if it ever feels like youre not moving forward. So, share as much or as little as you like but do try to stick to keeping just one thread in this forum so people know where to find you if they want to be updated on your progress or share something with you.
And on that note….
Im going to hand you over to our community because Im sure they will have some words of wisdom for you 🙂
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