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    razzabelle
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    I am so ashamed of myself.  When a ********** Racino opened up in the area I reside, about seven years ago, I resisted going until May of 2010!  Prior to this place opening, I was an Atlantic City (once a month) girl.  This casino/racino is only ten minutes from my home.  After winning a few hundred dollars or so, and losing just as much, around my 45th birthday (July 2010) something inside me SNAPPED.  I started to crave the "rush" and feelings of excitement as I started to feed more and more of my hard earned money into the slots.  Flash forward to December 2012.  Here is what my insanity has "given me"….A second mortgage; $11,000.00 in credit card debt; alienation from family & friends; no food in my frig; basic comforts of life (new undies, coat, or shoes) NON-existent; hoarding gasoline (so there is enough to drive to casino); begging my parents for money; creditors harrassing non-stop; not going to dentist, doctor, even hairdresser; not having food for the cats; not being able to do laundry because there is no detergent; crying jags that do not abate; selling EVERY piece of jewelery I owned (including Grandma’s wedding band):(…; feelings of nothingness; being sucked into the black; no longer reading; weight loss; wrinkles; sadness; depression; SHAME….oh the SHAME. — 30/11/2012 09:06:05: post edited by harry.

    #11935
    razzabelle
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    Hi Ican!!!  Thank You for the "CHEER"…..you made me smile!  *** You Get What You Give

    #11936
    Anonymous
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    Hi Razz: Just wanted you to know that I’ve been thinking about you over these past days. You have been wonderfully supportive to me and I hope you’re doing well. I haven’t seen you posting and I’m hoping with all my heart that you’re busy doing happy things and living your life the way you want to. Love, RG

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