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    • #27921
      sshort
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      This post is my first. It’s almost 2015 ..that’s the year I need to take control. I went to the casino tonight. Couldn’t hit a thing. This afternoon I looked at my bank account and knew I had about 1500 extra dollars. Tonight I wrote 3500 in checks that will likely bounce before payday on Wednesday. So you can imagine that I feel like shit. My goals are to start the Dave Ramsey snowball plan…but I need the month of January paydays just to catch up on what I did tonight. I maybe go to the casino once every 2 or 3 weeks…but lose a significant amount of money each time… Take about 500 lose that and then keep writing checks for 500 until I’m satiated ..never even thinking about what the heck I’m actually doing until I get in the car and have the holy fuck what did I just do inside cry to myself. I seem to go to the casino when I can.. When kids are out…taken care of…when I don’t feel like my husband will miss me…because he’s busy doing his own thing…when I feel like I am rewarding myself for something…etc. Anyway that’s my sorry right now… Really looking forward to getting some help. In the meantime I’ll be counting the days until payday …joint the bank doesn’t cash my check and bounce them all before Wednesday. 10 days after that I will be fretting that I am 2000 short this month.. Then I’ll get paid again on the 15th and will likely feel that I have some extra to blow again. Ya right. My credit card debt is through the roof because I’ve been doing this for 15 years. Only recently has my bouncing checks become a bin issue for me while I’m at the casino though. And that’s why I’m now here. Because I know I’ve gone too far. I’ll be fine…living in dread with a massive cover up for a few weeks…I’m mostly worried about January 15th. When I get outside again and feel caught up and have that 150 January free okay to use. So tempting.

    • #27922
      sshort
      Participant

      Oh the auto correct mistakes! When I get paid again and have the free play is one correction! Bin issue? I mean non issue.

    • #27923
      sshort
      Participant

      Joint the bank is hoping the bank! Speaking of which ..those of you who best this gambling thing…did you change banks to hide the embarrassment of bouncing checks to the casino? I’m thinking of doing that

    • #27924
      jansdad
      Participant

      Hey sshort and welcome to the forum. I’m fairly new here myself.
      I know I shouldn’t be the one telling you this, as I’m currently hiding things from my wife just like you are from your husband, but it is probably better to come clean and tell your husband.
      I have reasons other than fear (although it is because of the fear for the most part) for not telling my wife. Unless you have too, you should probably go ahead and tell your husband.

    • #27925
      janey1
      Participant

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      Hello and thanks for starting a thread in the Gambling Therapy forums

      Here at Gambling Therapy we pride ourselves on being a caring and diverse online community who can help and support you with the difficulties you’re currently facing. We understand that this might be a tough time for you, particularly if you’re new to recovery, so come here as often as you need to and participate in the forums, access online groups and connect to the live advice helpline if you need one to one support. We’re in this together!

      Here on the forum you can share your experiences in a safe, supportive and accepting environment. The beauty of writing it all down is that you can take your time and you will be creating a record of your progress that you can look back on if it ever feels like you’re not moving forward. So, share as much or as little as you like but do try to stick to keeping just one thread in this forum so people know where to find you if they want to be updated on your progress or share something with you.

      And on that note….

      I’m going to hand you over to our community because I’m sure they will have some words of wisdom for you 🙂

      Take care

      The Gambling Therapy Team


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    • #27926
      charles
      Moderator

      Hi sshort and welcome.

      Are you reading the other stories here? You will see a lot of stories similar to your own. You will also see the success stories and see the sort of thing you can apply to your own situation.

      Maybe get some proper financial advice; there are alot of options around these days and one that says don’t pay off the most expensive debts first might not be the best for you.

      How about getting yourself banned from that casino? Ask them to remove your name from their mailing list and you wont get those “free plays” as a temptation.

      Keep posting.

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