[michelle64]

Something has happened today …….
Something has happened
for me it came as a shock
It felt like my whole body
had taken a major knock
Deep inside of me I knew
what had happened was s**t
I asked myself if I had
the strength to cope with it?
Normally to cope
I would go and gamble
As a way to escape
from things I can’t handle
Running away and
placing that first bet
Would help me to cope
but I know I’d have regret
I know that I am in recovery
and I am now a lot stronger
I know without gambling
my life is so much better
But what happened today
I didn’t at all expect
I know in my mind
there’s 2 choices I can select
I can go and gamble
to helpwith the **** of today
Or I can face the issue
and cope in a gamble free way
I’ve learnt to talk about it now
which helps me to get through
And choosing to not go and gamble
I’ve decided not to go and do
I can’t change what’s happened
but I can try to cope with it within
I try to accept it because
gambling I don’t want to begin
But for me it is so feking hard
because I feel I’ve lost something
That has given me a lot of support
to help me cope with my gambling
I could use what’s happened today
as an excuse to return for a bet
But instead thankfully the issue
I have faced head on and met
 
Michelle
 
 (not recent poem)
  — 08/10/2012 08:27:59: post edited by harry.

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