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      Am new here. Well, the first time is always great. I won for almost a whole month. I even paid my tuition fee. Then the losing started. I quickly turned into a pretender and a lier. I would pretend am okay after a heavy lose, when am with my family during meal time and so on. But I would not sleep at time. I would tell myself, i have get that money back. Hehee well by the time it is dawn in the morning I lost more. Then i would have a long day full of guilt and stressful thoughts trying to strategize how to survive without anyone noticing that i had gambled away money. I protected that lie with another better lie and i lost myself completely. it became habit in me. With no time, I looked forward to gamble. Am particularly triggered by problems. Not just mine, even my close friends problem or my family problems that need money. Gambling has caused me everything, I attempted suicide, one year ago. Well, I stopped for almost 8 months only to relapse when I really needed money. Good lord, sometimes am scared of what i have became, of what am capable of doing, of what i have done. I lasted gambled last week and my girlfriend and my sister told me, I have not put enough effort. I need to put in actions. So today, I have signed for help, I have accepted I cant do it on my own. I trust i can do it, i can stop and quit gambling. I hope I remain committed to helping myself.

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      Hello and thanks for starting a thread in the Gambling Therapy forums. By posting to the forums you’re allowing the diverse and caring Gambling Therapy community to help support you through the difficulties you’re facing.

      This may well be a tough time for you – particularly if you’re new to recovery, so we encourage you to post here as often as you need to, as well as making use of the online groups and the live advice helpline if you’d like some one-to-one support. We’re all in this together! If you’re a new member, you are warmly invited to join Charles in one of the New Members Practical Advice groups (Mondays at 21:00 UK Time and Thursdays at 19:00 UK Time).

      The forum is a great place to share your experiences in a safe, supportive and accepting environment. By writing it all down you can start to build a record of your progress that you can look back on – particularly useful if you’re ever feeling stuck. Share as much or as little as you like – but you’re encouraged to stick to keeping to just one thread in this forum – so people know where to find you to check in on your progress or to share something with you.

      The Gambling Therapy staff team don’t generally post to the forums as it is a peer support area of the site – so we’ll hand you over to the community from here.

      Take care,

      The Gambling Therapy Team

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