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  • #12031
    williame
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    Today I feel I made real progress treating my complusive gambling disease. Made connection with a coach today that I feel  gets it and going to my 1st consultation on Saturday. 19 days gamble free living one day at a time, today was a very good day, made this thread so myself and hopefully others will gain something by reading and posting on it. Going to GA once a week currently in search for the right treatment for me.

    #12032
    williame
    Participant

    Nothing feels better than to start the new year gamble free. With a commitment to treatment and a desire to be free of this gambling addiction, a bright future is now possible. Want to thank my therapist and those here on this site for all your help, I wouldnt be 4 months gamble free without your help and guidance. Happy New Year everyone 🙂

    #12033
    williame
    Participant

    I am now 5+ months gamble free. Thank you sherry123 for your response, it helped alot. What Im learning now and I hope it helps other CG’s is that I was very sick emotionally from abuse as a child from my mom. Now the gambling is gone, but all the years of pain and sadness are still there and now without the gambling to escape I am now forced to face a strong case of depression, which was the driving force behind my compulsive gambling (which i didnt realize till now). Trying to be patient and continue therapy, which helps. Im currently on an antidepressant (prozac 40mg) and it helps, but not that much. Will continue to work on myself to allieve this depression, any advice would be appreciated.

    #12034
    Anonymous
    Guest

    Congratulations on your 5 months and then some. I thought long and hard before I replied because I’ve been struggling and I don’t feel qualified to help at this point. However, I feel we should share whatever tools we have to help each other. Lately, I’ve been reading a blog about changing our lives for the better. A lot of it revolves around behavioural change. It’s helping me, give it a shot, perhaps it will resonate with your too. http://www.changeblog.com. My best to you. RG

    #12035
    bettie
    Participant

    Hi Williame,
    You have a valid point. When I started recovery I assumed, incorrectly, that my life would just get better overnight. How wrong I was!
    The good news is when we confront the past, "peal the onion" as it were, thats when real recovery begins. As we learn new coping tools we will find that gambling is not the fix we once thought it was, and we "grow up". 
    Most people find that the heavy urges seem to stop at the 6 month mark. Look how far you have come!
    bettie 

    #12036
    williame
    Participant

    Thanks for the replies and advice 🙂 Feeling much better today, my therapist suggested cleaning my home to create a more positive living environment so i spent the entire day cleaning. Suprisingly, it helped quite a bit, and I suggest it to everyone 🙂

    #12037
    vera
    Participant

    Congratulations on 5 G -free months William!
    Nothing will change the past. That is a common cliche, I know but I really question the value of dwelling on ***** that caused us hurt and pain. Some people become very fixated in past issues. This gives the past power over us. Another cliche, I know, but I have learned that the more I delved into the past, the more morbid my life seemed. Morbidity definitely drove me to gambling and as Neva rightly said, the side effects of the "cure" (gambling) were worse than the depression!
    I think it is good to revisit the past William. Look at it as if you are looking at pictures in a book,and when you have observed what you need to see, then turn the page and move on. Each chapter in our lives brings a new experience. Some good . Some bad. Some mediocre. Personally, I used gambling to blur out the pages I could not bear to look at, until the only page left was an empty blank.
    I have no words or no picture to describe that page! 
    From here on we can write the next chapter William, beginning with…
    "Today, I did not gamble!"
    I hope you regain your life as you enter the threshold of hope!

    #12038
    neva
    Participant

    I agree…clutter in your house is clutter in your soul.  Maybe that’s why ‘spring cleaning’ is so important.  You’re doing great!

    #12039
    williame
    Participant

    Id like to PROUDLY announce that I am now 6 months free from my gambling addiction! Its such a wonderful feeling to be free of this horrible addiction. I reflect back to where I began 6 months ago and am so blessed to find a great counselor who specializes in gambling addiction. Plan on celebrating my sobriety this weekend with my wife and 3 boys.

    #12040
    Anonymous
    Guest

    Sending you transatlantic ‘champagne’ ………..thats brilliant, its your story and others that motivate me to work this evil away and outta my life. Love the fact the biggest please is your kids………
    Well done

    #12041
    neva
    Participant

    Great news William!  6 months is amazing.  You deserve a celebration and all the better to share it with the ones you love most! I’m smiling and happy for you!  Sherry

    #12042
    neva
    Participant

    That’s impressive! Over 7 months clean time!!!!  I’ve read a lot of threads where people are racking up the clean time and it’s something I never tire of reading.  You’re proof that it can be done.  I’m so happy for you!

    #12043
    williame
    Participant

    Happy to check in and report I am 8+ months gamble free. As a reward to myself, I bought a Playstation 3 with the money I would of wasted on gambling, and it felt wonderful. Still off the prozac going med free, feeling better each day. Depression has lifted for @ a month now and am acomplishing much more. On break from my therapy for now, planning on sitting in on some GA meetings (since they are free) for maintenance.Thanks Neva for the kind remarks, Im proud of my sobriety, felt good to sleep thru the Kentucky Derby this year and have no wager on it 🙂
    Wishing everyone here at GT a happy gamble free day!

    #12044
    adele
    Participant

    Williame,
    I see how my husband struggles with this addiction and how he resists getting the help he so desperately *****.  So it is very encouraging for me to see someone like you who is experiencing success and working all the harder because of it. Way to go!
    Adele
     
     "… should I give up or should I just keep trying to run after you when there's nothing there?"  Adele

    #12045
    williame
    Participant

    Today marks 9 months gamble free!!! Celebrated with a vacation with my wife and 3 boys to Virginia. We had a wonderful time swimming, going to the zoo etc. In the grips of my addiction, Id be at an online poker table or at the racetrack. Instead, I had a week of laugher and joy with my family, and for that I am truly blessed. So happy to not feel the need for escapement thru gambling anymore. Recovery is there, you just have to be ready to surrender to this horrible addiction and face your underlying reasons that drive your desire to gamble. Life is so  much richer without gambling in it. I pray for everyone who still suffers from this addiction.

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