Tagged: Gambling Diary
12 January 2023 at 7:22 pm #169552georgesteveParticipant
I finally manned up, after reading through so many posts about how it helped to recover, told my wife about my problem.
Her initial reaction is what i thought it would be, because i have been in a debt situation before.
I have never seeked help from others for my gambling problem, but in church, on Christmas day, I feel like i received the greatest gift.
I heard a voice so clear saying “This is not my plan for you and your family” and the online casino music playing. I looked at my wife and boys and realised i need help.
I downloaded the app and started going through the workbook listing my triggers and the Crossroads section. my heart sank as the negatives grew.
I made loans to cover my day to day stuff and put food on the table but now i am at the point where i can barely rub 2 coins together. I messed up. I have dug myself back into a hole.
On that Christmas morning in church, i held back the tears, i felt like a piece of rubbish. I was at my lowest that morning, yet i was spoken to.
There has to be a plan, and i need to get out.
I found Gordon Moody’s website purely by devine intervention, and downloaded the app.
This morning the wife asked me where a refund from a cruise we were meant to take went, i opened the app, and the motivation for the day said, “Don’t wait. The time will never be just right”
I wrestled with this for a few minutes because the wife is busy with a hectic deadline at work and under so much pressure.
She said “I am done” which is the worst kind of words she can say. It broke me to my core. I should have addressed this problem a long time ago. I am dragging her down and my entire family with me.
I have closed my online gambling account and will be sending my self exclusion form as soon as i get it printed. I have given her the login to my credit record to see how deep in the poo i am.
She is an accountant and has helped me get out of debt before. She keeps the house afloat because all i can currently do is provide services like cook and clean.
I am hoping that i won’t be kicked out on to the streets. I am hoping that i can get through this. I am praying for a full recovery.
12 January 2023 at 7:24 pm #169575charlesModerator
Hello and thanks for starting a thread in the Gambling Therapy forums
Here at Gambling Therapy we pride ourselves on being a caring and diverse online community who can help and support you with the difficulties you’re currently facing. We understand that this might be a tough time for you, particularly if you’re new to recovery, so come here as often as you need to and participate in the forums, access online groups and connect to the live advice helpline if you need one to one support. We’re in this together!
Here on the forum you can share your experiences in a safe, supportive and accepting environment. The beauty of writing it all down is that you can take your time and you will be creating a record of your progress that you can look back on if it ever feels like you’re not moving forward. So, share as much or as little as you like but do try to stick to keeping just one thread in this forum so people know where to find you if they want to be updated on your progress or share something with you.
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And on that note….
I’m going to hand you over to our community because I’m sure they will have some words of wisdom for you 🙂
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