[Ville]

I tough I would write and share something here, since I got adviced to come here to talk. I’m at day 1 (yet again). I have been gambling for about 4 years, and it started as typical as it can I guess, put couple euros here and there and be done with it and have little fun. Well that’s how it went for first year or so, and then came in toughs of actually making money from it since I got couple decendly big wins. For couple years now the amount I use has just gone larger and larger, to the point I wouldn’t even blink if I lost 100 euros in couple minutes to slot. I have talked about my addiction to my girlfriend, and she has given me a lot of support. The thing is, she thinks I have it under control now, and I am too ashamed to tell that it’s under control only for so long until I blow it all up. I have grown more depressed for every time I tell myself that this is the last time, going through all the stuff to make it harder for me to go back to gamble, banning myself from online casinos and installing blocking apps, only to be hit with this insane urge to play and I managed to find around all these things I did to stop me from gambling, like I was just a passenger in my own body. I have been many times thinking of ending of my own life after the losses and days following them. I am actually scared that I fuck up big time since christmas is coming and I know its a big thing for my girlfriend. I have managed not to ruin our financial stuff, tough there has been couple times I had to take small loans to pay for travels I saved money for. I don’t know how many day’s I am able to go this time, I just hope writing here and opening gives me enough power or something to resist the addiction before it’s too late. So this is my first day.

[dunc]

Hello and thanks for starting a thread in the Gambling Therapy forums

Here at Gambling Therapy we pride ourselves on being a caring and diverse online community who can help and support you with the difficulties you’re currently facing. We understand that this might be a tough time for you, particularly if you’re new to recovery, so come here as often as you need to and participate in the forums, access online groups and connect to the live advice helpline if you need one to one support. We’re in this together!

Here on the forum you can share your experiences in a safe, supportive and accepting environment. The beauty of writing it all down is that you can take your time and you will be creating a record of your progress that you can look back on if it ever feels like you’re not moving forward. So, share as much or as little as you like but do try to stick to keeping just one thread in this forum so people know where to find you if they want to be updated on your progress or share something with you.

As well as the forums New Members are invited to join Charles in the New Members Practical Advice Group On Mondays at 21:00 (UK) and Thursday at 19:00(UK)

And on that note….

I’m going to hand you over to our community because I’m sure they will have some words of wisdom for you 🙂

Take care

The Gambling Therapy Team

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[G Rec]

Welcome to the forum Ville and well done on taking this important step of acknowledging the problem and wanting to do something about it.
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nI am also relatively new to this forum, posting for a few weeks but I have found it a great help, and hopefully the same will be true for you.
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nI can definitely recommend the New Members Practical Advice Group On Mondays at 21:00 (UK) and Thursday at 19:00(UK) mentioned by the Gambling Therapy Team, Charles does a great job at providing personalized advice/steps you can take to help with your recovery.

[Ville]

Thank you G Rec. I have been trying stopping alone before, but some how I feel little bit more confident about it this time. Its nice that there is a place like this where we can share this stuff and vent it out instead of just going through it in our heads. Day 2 and felt already tiny urge to gamble since I have extra free time alone today, but instead I decided to come and write here.
nIll try to check on those groups, might be also be really good help.

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