Hello everybody. So in 2016 I had a pension and I blew it or half of it in a few weeks on betfair. This was when I joined up here and posted a few thoughts. I had my own systems and was convinced they would work, I just needed discipline and patients, but I don’t have those qualities in life so they could never have worked. I went away and tried and tried and tried some more, using my skills in sports betting . I went on good runs but always ended the same way. Everytime I would lose I convinced myself that a little tweak here or there would solve my problem and that I can make it pay long term. This has worn me right down. I live at home with my wife and daughter but I have ruined those relationships because of my insistence of gambling. See it’s been 14 yrs now on and off. I have vowed to stop. I closed my betfair account a year ago and showed my daughter the grand gesture, she didn’t buy it. She simply told her mam that I would find another place to bet eventually. She was right of course. To cut a very long and boring story short I now have convinced myself that I really just cannot make it pay. This is the first time in my gambling life that I can honestly say that I believe it 100%. Other times there has always been that lurking feeling that if I do this or that differently that i can make it work. Now I finally realise I am COMPULSIVE. It has taken lots of money time and pain to finally know this, yes I just KNOW this now. I KNOW I CANNOT WIN. I KNOW IT. Today feb 3rd 2019 is my last ever day of betting. I will not do it again .
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