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      selfhatecantsleep
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      After maxing out my credit card putting myself in debt playing online blackjack I started to actually recover even though it still ate at me constantly. Over this weekend I downloaed the app again and put 400 dollars in and won all of the money back and withdrew it so I could get out of credit card debt. Well tonight I reversed the withdrawal and lost all of it in about 10 minutes. I knew itas it was happening but just kept betting 300 dollars over and over until it was all gone. Than proceeded to lose the rest of the money to my name. It’s like i am a zombie and is onctrolling me.I keep promising myself to be responsible and make myself actually believe I can be. I cannot sleep. I cannot function. I just hate myself and everything about how weak minded and irresponsible i am. I want to get better. I cannot believe I did that AGAIN. This feeling of numbness is indescribable. I’m so embarrassed and ashamed.

    • #54583
      i-did-it
      Participant

      Hi Can’t sleep
      Post usually go on the My journal section so yours may have been missed by people .

      When you can’t stop barriers might give you a little space . I have gamban downloaded onto my internet devices so I can’t gamble on them.

      I ordered a new bank card and have had someone scratch the last three numbers off the back so I cannot gamble online – it still works in shops.

      There are many other things you can do but the overall aim is to make it as difficult as possible to gamble until the urges pass.

      I hope this helps and you find a little freedom from this horrible addiction .

    • #54584
      dunc
      Participant

      Hello and thanks for starting a thread in the Gambling Therapy forums

      Here at Gambling Therapy we pride ourselves on being a caring and diverse online community who can help and support you with the difficulties you’re currently facing. We understand that this might be a tough time for you, particularly if you’re new to recovery, so come here as often as you need to and participate in the forums, access online groups and connect to the live advice helpline if you need one to one support. We’re in this together!

      Here on the forum you can share your experiences in a safe, supportive and accepting environment. The beauty of writing it all down is that you can take your time and you will be creating a record of your progress that you can look back on if it ever feels like you’re not moving forward. So, share as much or as little as you like but do try to stick to keeping just one thread in this forum so people know where to find you if they want to be updated on your progress or share something with you.

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      And on that note….

      I’m going to hand you over to our community because I’m sure they will have some words of wisdom for you 🙂

      Take care

      The Gambling Therapy Team

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