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    • #32004
      casper79
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      Hi. I’m a 36 year old female who as gambled online for over 5 years now. I had counselling 2 years ago to help me recover and I was clean for a while and then I had a relapse! I have no one to talk to about this because when my mum and partner found out the first time this started, I really hurt them both. My mother in law criticised me all the time and kept telling people what I had done. I stole from family to feed my addiction. My partner said if I gambled again he would leave me and take the kids off me.
      I feel so lonely and think they would all he better off without me. I love all my family and I keep trying to say, look I need help but the words never come out.
      I have got myself into more debt but I have self excluded myself from the most recent site. I play online slots on bingo sites.
      All I think about is gambling and my partner plays on his xbox every night and is on his laptop every night straight from work so I feel alone once the kids go to be.
      This is day 2 for me on not gambling. I want to break free from the addiction now and never turn back I just don’t know if I am strong enough to do it!

    • #32005
      Dunc
      Keymaster

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      Hello and thanks for starting a thread in the Gambling Therapy forums

      Here at Gambling Therapy we pride ourselves on being a caring and diverse online community who can help and support you with the difficulties you’re currently facing. We understand that this might be a tough time for you, particularly if you’re new to recovery, so come here as often as you need to and participate in the forums, access online groups and connect to the live advice helpline if you need one to one support. We’re in this together!

      Here on the forum you can share your experiences in a safe, supportive and accepting environment. The beauty of writing it all down is that you can take your time and you will be creating a record of your progress that you can look back on if it ever feels like you’re not moving forward. So, share as much or as little as you like but do try to stick to keeping just one thread in this forum so people know where to find you if they want to be updated on your progress or share something with you.

      And on that note….

      I’m going to hand you over to our community because I’m sure they will have some words of wisdom for you 🙂

      Take care

      The Gambling Therapy Team


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    • #32006
      charles
      Moderator

      Hi Casper, well done on your two gamble free days.

      Read soem of the other stories here, you will see a lot of stories similar to your own. You will also read the success stories – what are they doing that you can apply to your own situation?

      Well doen on getting excluded from that online site. Did you know you can get a blocker for your PC that will stop you visiting other sites? http://www.gamblock.com is one though there are others.

      There is a lot of support around these days, here and sites like this, places like Gamblers Anonymous, counselling and more. Keep coming here and check out what other support is in your area.

      It sounds like you have other things that will need addressing; stopping gambling will put you in a position to be able to do that.

      Maybe talk to your husband and try to plan some non gambling, non X box things to do together.

      I would recommend finding a way to come clean about the debts. Trying to keep things hidden can in itself send someone gambling.

      You thread is called “Will I ever be free of my gambling addiction.” Well you will always be an addict but by using the support that is avaialble you can move forward and have a great gamble free future, one day at a time.

      Keep posting.

    • #32007
      casper79
      Participant

      Thanks Charles. It is hard to get through this and when I gambled it was always a way or shutting things off around me. I also turn to food more when I am not gambling. I am going to try and go to the gym on an evening to fill in my gambling gaps. How long have u stopped gambling for?

    • #32008
      charles
      Moderator

      Hi Casper,

      I haven’t had a bet in a long enough time to turn my life around really. I couldn’t do it on my own though and however long someone has been gamble free, days, weeks, months or years tehy ahve all done it the same way – one day at a time.

      Keep posting and let us know how you get on at the gym.

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