[bettie]

Its been a while since I’ve used the site. I’m looking for the live chat but not finding it.
It’s 4pm my time. I’ve stayed in all day. I don’t trust myself to go out but planning to go to my brothers house to use his pc.
Thanks for the comment I did it.
Your right, no one is taking care of bettie.
I saw my baby boy today. I love that child so much. I want to be in a position to help him financially but gambling won’t get me there.
Well I should shower and go.
Gonna bring my pc so my good brother can clear it up for me.
He going to retire and move away next year. That’s gonna be tough. Hes like a grandpa to my grandson. Hes so good to me.
Take care,
bettie

[bettie]

Thanks for thinking about me. I have to be proactive about myself. Baby will be here soon. My daughter is in drug treatment and has to attend meetings twice a week. She was concerned about telling me she was going however it’s so much better than having her steal pain meds from family and friends. Yes, she has real pain. It took me a bit to accept that. Her dad had to really lay it out for me. She has chronic pain that she will always have from being hit by the car when she was 12. It’s a reason not an excuse. I enabled her for years but that stopped for me. She is a good mom. She puts her son first. He is still having speach therapy and occupational therapy. He is saying a few words here and there. He will also start preschool when he turns 3. We are afraid because he doesn’t speak. There are so many creepy people out there. I told her to volunteer at the preschool to see how things really go. She had bloodwork and her numbers indicate she has more active cancer. They did a scan and plan a relook in a couple of months. I did make a bit of an effort to help myself get a new job. I’m having computer problems so I went to use my brothers PC. I was still unable to get into the program I need to test for a job with the state. I will try again this afternoon after baby is picked up. I see my surgeon for my one year checkup Wednesday  . I haven’t been able to workout because of chronic leg pain. I have a bad varicose vein and insurance had denied coverage for it. I am wearing compression hose and that helps. I would have time to workout if I wasn’t out gambling. My priority are messed up. Well back to basics for me. Trying to do the next right thing. No gambling for me today. ODAAT bettie

[bettie]

So glad to reconnect with you here. 

I’m in a bad way. My head is not in a good way. I’m sad and depressed. 

I hope you are doing well.

[bettie]

So glad to reconnect with you here. 

I’m in a bad way. My head is not in a good way. I’m sad and depressed. 

I hope you are doing well.

[bettie]

So glad to reconnect with you here. 

I’m in a bad way. My head is not in a good way. I’m sad and depressed. 

I hope you are doing well.

[bettie]

Hi guys,
Wish I had good news but I don’t.
I lost my job in May. I got a good severance and am collecting unemployment. I should be in good financial shape yet I am not.
I am gambling like a nut case. More money more problems I guess.
I’m having a bit of gamblers remorse tonight.
I have to start paying my whole insurance premium next week. I’ve gambled almost all of my last check on the machines. I’m a mess.
I’ve just started applying for new jobs. I’ve had a busy summer. I’ve had the time and money to travel.
I need help.
Quite discussed with myself.
Bettie

[bettie]

Hi guys,
Wish I had good news but I don’t.
I lost my job in May. I got a good severance and am collecting unemployment. I should be in good financial shape yet I am not.
I am gambling like a nut case. More money more problems I guess.
I’m having a bit of gamblers remorse tonight.
I have to start paying my whole insurance premium next week. I’ve gambled almost all of my last check on the machines. I’m a mess.
I’ve just started applying for new jobs. I’ve had a busy summer. I’ve had the time and money to travel.
I need help.
Quite discussed with myself.
Bettie

[bettie]

So nice to hear from you guys so soon.
Glad I’m not a stranger to you all.
The FWB called me yesterday. He is still the same as he ever was. He humiliated me and broke my heart. He would like to see me. I don’t really know what I want but I do know I don’t want him.
I broke it off with him about three years ago. She hasn’t changed a bit..

[bettie]

Hi guys!
Long past due, time for a catch-up.
Life on life’s terms.
Where to start?
I’m loosing my job of 22 years.
Automation, who knew? My branch is closing on May 23. They made me apply for open spots and as of today I have not gotten one. I interviewed yesterday for a job that is a step down from my position but I am not a cut throat and I’ve never been a backstabber. I’ve always strive to be upfront and honest with customers and doing what’s best for them as opposed to just making a sale. One manager I interviewed with, my old manager, specifically asked how my sales were last year. I was off for 2 months on medical leave and did not achieve the sales goal. I’m afraid that’s really what’s holding me back at this point. There is a severance and I’m not going to starve however it’s devastating to give up everything that you’ve worked for for 22 years. I will not start anywhere and make nearly the hourly wage that I make.
that being said my gambling has run amok. The very last thing I could possibly afford to do I’m out there doing whenever I can find a minute.
life has been less than kind recently. As I posted before Jennifer has thyroid cancer. Last July she went for a checkup and they found more cancer in her system. They did body scans and various tests. She had more surgery in December and they removed five lymph nodes. There were cancer in two of them. The cancer she has has a 98% cure rate and unfortunately she’s part of 2% that it didn’t work for. There is no treatment for her at this point. All they can do is watch and wait and keep up on blood work. When they find something then they have to go looking for it. This is quite devastating with the baby being just a bit over 2 years old now. Our baby has sensory issues and may be on the autism spectrum. He turned two in February and he still does not talk. He also does not like different textures and it’s still on a bottle primarily for nutrition. He will eat some crackers and peanut butter and pretty much anything that we can still put in a bottle. He refuses a sippy cup and we have tried different ones. He is working with two different therapist right now and is making progress.
I’ve got enough on my plate right now and just felt like venting a little bit. I quit smoking for 9 months so I could have my surgery and now I’m back to a pack a day just that quick. Just more money flushed down a toilet.
On a brighter note I had gastric bypass surgery in October and that has gone really well. Quite the change I must say.
My GA meeting has disbanded. There are plenty others so I just need to find a new one and get my ass in there.
Well I need to get ready for work.
Take care!

[bettie]

Hi Amy,

I could lie and say I’ve been gamble free but that is not the case. I have gone years without gambling but I do have the occasional gamble.

I know I am playing with fire. I can give lots of excuses but that’s just what they are.

I no longer have that raging urge to gamble. I have a respect for money, which was lost on me for a very long time.

[bettie]

Your story is similar to most of us that have posted on GT. Have you started a thread?

It’s hard to accept some of the things this addiction will have you do. I could be retired by now but now I will need to work until I physically can’t anymore. 

[bettie]

Your story is similar to most of us that have posted on GT. Have you started a thread?

It’s hard to accept some of the things this addiction will have you do. I could be retired by now but now I will need to work until I physically can’t anymore. 

[bettie]

Hi guys, Chinese full body scan came back. Her cancer has not metastasized. She needs to have what’s called a pet scan now and insurance is denying it because of the similar to the last full body scan she had. The doctor has to fight with the insurance now to get them to pay for the procedure. Life is still on hold until we know what her treatment needs to me. I quit smoking. It’s getting better now but those first few days were murder.
Went to a bar and played Game of Thrones trivia with my usual Tuesday night trivia gals. We won first place! Those pretty exciting especially being in an unfamiliar group surrounding. I should be sleeping. I have doctor’s appointment and am finally going to the hairdresser. She will have plenty to work with his I’ve only cut my hair once or twice since having brain surgery in 2016. It is very long. It falls out pretty easily so it’s time to cut it off. I was going to wait until after my surgery but I look like a slob everyday. I need to make a little effort to look better when I go to work.
Take care,
Bettie

[bettie]

Hi Lizbeth,
In the United States they cannot touch retirement funds. That is why Oj didn’t have to pay Nicole’s parents any money because his income is all from retirement income.
Collection agents will say anything to collect. That’s how they get paid. That’s also illegal.
I hope things are going well for you now.
Betti

[bettie]

Hi guys,
I had my last procedure needed before my gastric bypass. It’s scheduled for October 2 nd. Jenny also had her full body scan today. I think everything went well. They told her if they had something they were real suspicious of they would stop and do a 3D scan of that area. That didn’t happen so I’m thinking all good thoughts. She should have her results in 2 to 3 days. I will not go forward with my surgery if Jenny needs me. It’s a mom thing. Doesn’t matter how old they are your kids always come first.
my new boss started this week. He seems like a very nice guy with one exception. He cannot keep his hands to himself. He likes to come up behind me and pinch my ear or rub on an arm or shoulder. I find this Behavior totally unacceptable. He did this on Wednesday and I told him straight out ” you don’t know me like that “. I hope that he got the hint because I’m not going to tolerate it. He is off tomorrow and I’m off all next week. I’m going to talk to the assistant manager and ask her to speak to him. I don’t want to discuss this with him. It makes me very anxious and uncomfortable. And I don’t have to explain myself either. This creates a hostile working situation for me and I will not tolerate it.
I hope everyone is doing well.
Jenny’s new boyfriend has very short hair. She asked me to cut Isaac’s hair. I cut it and but she wants me to shave it short and I’m just not going to do that. It was so important to her that he have long hair like his father’s and now that she’s got a man in the picture I guessing she wants Isaac to look like this guy. It was hard enough giving him a haircut and all his beautiful little girls falling to the floor. I just can’t bear the thought of him having a Clipper cut and he’s not even 2 years old yet.
Betti

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