[chahed123]

Hello dark energy
I hope you are well mate.
Your spot on with what you wrote it’s not just the gambling that’s the core of all the problems we face.l realize in my case it’s l have a lot of character defaults that l need to work on.MY recovery is going well as in a scene l am not gambling but as l said earlier l have my character defaults to really work on if l am honest with myself.l have to rediscover who l really am because deep down l don’t like who l have become.
I pray for the almighty help and guidance because it’s really hard knowing the truth about ones self.
Dark Energy l wish you all the best.recovery is difficult but well worth it.

[chahed123]

Hello everybody
I hope you are all well.Just a quick message for dark energy l enjoy so much reading your quotes they are so true and l Thankyou for being true to your self and all of us.
Thankyou Chahed.

[chahed123]

Hello everyone
I hope you are all well remarkable quotes l have read Mr Murray what a fighter it’s never too late my friends to give6it’s taken me 30yrs to get where l am now.10 of those 30yrs where spent gamble free not one relapse moved country with hope and aspirations to make a better life for me and my family.Mr Murray it is a struggle as you get older it gets even harder you realize you don’t have much time for change.My selfish behaviour has destroyed me because l now have 3children losing them is unbearable l have just been accepted into Gordon moody residential treatment center i am living in Belgium l am from London originally the10yrs that l have spent here7of those yrs have been great the past 3yrs has seen my life deteriorates to a level where l am about to lose everything.
I start from 0 again at the age of51 i am apprehensive scared and feel such a fool l did not do something about this horrible gut wrenching addiction before.we don’t hurt just ourselves we hurt our families our friends l am crying and bleeding inside having to leave my family and move back to the u.k to try and regain my life mentally and spiritually.l have not gambled for3weeks now l am looking forward to living back to the u.k l know it won’t be easy starting from zero again but l have confidence in my self to over come this and become the loving father and husband that l used to be l was never perfect l have mental disorders that l have to work on as well l feel cold hearted and mind has always been wondering about how if l did get the big win all my problems will be over it never happens.so l say to us all this disease is dangerous beware we cannot dip in and out when we want.Inshallah God willing we have to regain control of our lives again.
God bless us all.
Chahed

[chahed123]

Hi it’s Chahed
I hope you are all well.because l am struggling coming to terms how so called non gambling wife of mine feels no remorse or empathy towards me l am really sad it shows that people really don’t understand this pain of this addiction.she is carrying on with her life as if l don’t exist and its burning me inside God willing l will find the strength to be positive and carry on its been almost3weeks since l last gambled .at least my kids are happy.God bless.
Us all.

[chahed123]

Dark Energy
That was brilliant you give me so much inspiration to continue and fight this long fight l hope and pray that God gives you strength and will power as we all struggle with this evil addiction.God bless.
Take care Chahed.

[chahed123]

Hi friends
The struggle continues my wife has been filling for a divorce l am angry and pissed off its her right l messed up lost everything she is so right.it’s my children that I’m feeling for l should have made changes before before compulsive gambler losing everything for his addiction.what a world we are living in.

[chahed123]

Hello dark energy
How are you this is Chahed it’s good too hear from you.l don’t count the day’s that l haven’t gambled it’s been a couple of weeks what l do know is that we are all in this together the addiction doesn’t go a way it’s always there we have to fight everyday.some days are better than others take it day by day.your qoate was spot on l wonder myself how long does this pain we are feeling last for.l hope and pray as long as we are true to ourselves we can overcome this disease to lead good and clean life God willing.
I have just started on this journey and l don’t know how long or where it will take me what l do know is that it can’t get worse than when l was a compulsive gambler IT is hard but with time it will get easier God willing.Dark Energy
Keep up the great work you are doing God willing things can only get better.take care and Thankyou.
Chahed.

[chahed123]

Zero no hero
I hear your pain bro Thankyou for replying.yes you are right it’s been too long we do need to fix up l am so pleased you are still with your wife she is a Angel as for the kids l understand there resentment it is tough on them because we and are addicts.l stopped for years and life was good my emotional state changed when l started gambling l became a different person angry anxious and depressed.gambling is the most evil thing on the planet.l wish us all a speedy recovery.
No more mate we owe it to ourselves and our families.
All the best Chahed.

[chahed123]

Hi GRec l hope you are well.
Thankyou for the advice l did log into the new members group and it was really good as if l am connected to like minded people it gets easier.things are really tough right now in my life but l know that l have made the best decision to find help reading and listening to so many people’s stories is a big help physiologically using all the tips are very helpful as a lot of people have been there for a long time so l except that l need help and l am grateful.
Thankyou.

[chahed123]

Hi Charles it’s Chahed we got cut of earlier whilst in the new comers group.l don’t know how but l couldn’t get back where we were chatting.not to worry l will take your advice on board and stay in close contact with the group’s.
Thankyou.Chahed

[chahed123]

Hello everyone
I hope you are all well things are a bit better as time goes on.l am51yrs old today and very much looking forward to what unexpected flows of what life brings on.l don’t expect miracles l know l have a big battle ahead of me but I’m ready for the fight.regaining control of my addiction will be the most important fight that l have had to fight.being looked at as a looser is demoralizing l have lost family and friends self respect and love for myself and others.God willing l can mend some of the things l have done wrong whilst being a cg.l am at my wits end at how l have ruined my life and my family life l can only ask God to forgive me as it wasn’t really me that did those things it my compulsion to gambling that led me astray.l never had much what l did have l didn’t cherish for now it’s all gone l only have my self to blame.IT is depressing blaming your self for things you had no control over realizing now that l have most of the answers to the problems.this website and forums have been a great help reading other people story’s and relating to most people has helped me on my road to recovery.
Thankyou and God bless.

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