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  • in reply to: The bitter end of it #13598
    levi
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    i meant to say, by that time, i’m sure things WILL be much different .—– Levi

    in reply to: The bitter end of it #13597
    levi
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    PS – regarding the will, although its none of my business, i find it hard to believe that by the time your mother does pass away that things will be much much different and that making such a statement now is very hurtful to you but also irrelevant. given that (i assume) you are an only child, there would really be no logic in leaving you out of her will. i am sure that will not be the case. my mother is also battling an illness and i know it has great impact on their emotions, temper and all sorts, try not to take it to heart and just do you best to support as i know you already do and have done for a long time. i am sorry you have to go through this. all the best.—– Levi

    in reply to: The bitter end of it #13596
    levi
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    hi fella, hope you’re feeling okay,or at least a bit better, by the time you get this.
    you are in a really rough position for anyone to be in, let alone a guy of your age (i presume quite young) and at the start of your own life,facing all the crossroads which will shape your future. it must be a really tough call having the battle of wills at home and feeling frustrated and helpless at those situations, whilst also battling your own addiction and other problems.
    mate, try not to become overwhelmed. little by little, step by step, day by day. be supportive and kind within your family as i know you do, don’t take the bait when faced with the stubborn and awkwardness or even the nasty comments, there is a LOT to be said for taking the high ground and letting things wash over you, esp. things that are said in the heat of the moment and are more often than not, not meant and are soon forgotten. its little wonder you have formed your addiction, hearing the evolution of it makes sense, but also the escapism (which i know for me, is a huge factor in my gambling).
    it will get better. i believe that. hang on in. all the best wishes coming to you, i know theres a very very decent guy there with a heart of gold.—– Levi

    in reply to: second time around the track #13081
    levi
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    hey! things are holding up ok in my world. am making my payday last quite well, buying only essentials and bills, no gambling at all since my last slip. one of my major sources of disaster (a uk site called jackpot joy) is due to unblock on friday after a 4 week ban (i re-ban it every 4 weeks) so that will be a danger zone but i have vowed just to go straight there, log in, block it, and leave. then if i do that swiftly there is no time for “i’ll just have one game” and then disaster strikes. meanwhile i am looking forward to a week off work starting on friday!! can’t wait. am going away to a friend for some of it and the rest am decorating my bedroom and having a big sort out. i hope to feel really good after that.
    my little dog dexter is coming along awesome and we go for a long walk every single day which helps to clear my head, improve my fitness, make my little dog happy and get me at one with the simple beauty of nature without staring transfixed at a slot machine.—– Levi

    in reply to: Often wondering about Levi #14110
    levi
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    Thank you Carole.  For thinking of me. It means a lot.  Strangely something made me log in to this site today  – something I have not done in ages – and went straight to the forum and saw your message. So I thank you.
    A small update is that I am doing well.
    I am now 10 weeks into my new job and its all going well. The people there are kind and funny. I work 45 hours a week so my spare time is now valuable as well – spending it wisely, cheaply and relaxingly.

      I am slowly recovering financially – setting £700 aside every month to my gambling debt repayments, and now £2000 has been paid back since I started work. Which feels great to beable to say.
    I have been gamble free – apart from the very occasional OCCASIONAL slip where I’ve spent £10-£20 on a bingo game. Stark contrast to my days of spending £1000 on a single arcade or game, multiple ***** in a night.

    I’m starting to feel like I have more control over my life again now and that things are heading back on track. I am so protective of my money now I know how it feels again to have to work very hard for the small pay.
    I have some lovely plans in the upcoming future, a weeks holiday in June (not going away, but a week off at home to relax, take stock, etc).   And some lovely weather to boot.
    A more positive and recovered person is emerging from the wreckage and I hope things continue to get better. I feel I am working hard and seeing the benefits slowly but surely. And thats the way it should be.
    Thanks again. Levi.
    The value of money has returned to my conciousness. I am careful with every penny and I am working far too hard to want to risk just throwing it away.—– Levi

    in reply to: BELIEVE (new thread) #23114
    levi
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    sorry to hear about your dream kathryn, that sounds so emotional… i can just imagine the affect it had on you 🙁 perhaps though it was a sign of your dad coming through to you in a dream to let him know he is still around you. i have had that happen to me sometimes. i am sending you some massive hugs my friend xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx—– Levi"We’d gone in search of the American Dream. It had been a lame f*ck around, a waste of time. There was no point in looking back. F*ck no, not today – thank you."

    in reply to: BELIEVE (new thread) #23103
    levi
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    Hi Kathryn, just wanted to check in on your thread and say hey. Thank you again so much for the wonderful and powerful chat the other night. For the first time in a long time I signed off my computer that night feeling positive and uplifted by the things we have discussed–and ever more determined. Thank you for making that possible for me.   Hope you had a great weekend and looking forward to your vacation sounds great!!  Small goals like that definetly help keep us going…..hang in there, you’re a very special person!!! lots of love—– Levi"We’d gone in search of the American Dream. It had been a lame f*ck around, a waste of time. There was no point in looking back. F*ck no, not today – thank you."

    in reply to: Woke up wishing I was dead today #18165
    levi
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    Don’t associate with that guy Bettie. From the small amount you have written I can clearly see he will have nothing but a negative impact on your life. I know its a cliche but you DO deserve better and you don’t need to add any other negative factors into your life at this time that will make you feel any worse. Channel all the attention and strength you have in to YOU. Hang in there… no more tears. We all have your back!! xxxxxx—– Levi"We’d gone in search of the American Dream. It had been a lame f*ck around, a waste of time. There was no point in looking back. F*ck no, not today – thank you."

    in reply to: Woke up wishing I was dead today #18158
    levi
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    Hi Bettie – that was so sweet of you to give your shoes away and speaks volumes about the wonderful person you are.  xxxxxxxxxxx—– Levi"We’d gone in search of the American Dream. It had been a lame f*ck around, a waste of time. There was no point in looking back. F*ck no, not today – thank you."

    in reply to: Woke up wishing I was dead today #18113
    levi
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    *Bettie not Better! Sorry!—– Levi"We’d gone in search of the American Dream. It had been a lame f*ck around, a waste of time. There was no point in looking back. F*ck no, not today – thank you."

    in reply to: Woke up wishing I was dead today #18112
    levi
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    Congrats Better on 6 MONTHS !!!!! SO awesome!!  Well done.  And long may it continue, you are an inspiration to all.—– Levi"We’d gone in search of the American Dream. It had been a lame f*ck around, a waste of time. There was no point in looking back. F*ck no, not today – thank you."

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