[Rayman10]

Just an update guys ….. 6 months free … I love you all ….

[Rayman10]

been free since my last relapse , 1 Month and 5 days ,
Got paid and i dont feel like gambling ,
I feel sick anytime i think about Roulette
I am trying to conidtion my Mind feel complete depair when i think about gambling , BEcause its only depair it causes at the end of the day
Im doing well

[Rayman10]

fear has imprisoned me , but hope can set me free willl keep you all posted.

[Rayman10]

while i did confide in a close freind about my habit, i feel so alone,i really came here to ensure im not alone on this…. 

i feel as if part of my confidence is shattered as i have relapsed once again …

however i will not give…not with all you good people fighting the good fight 

here we go again Day 1 

; _(

[Rayman10]

I had been around 40 days of being gamble free , and i recently went and lost about1.5 K out of my salary on gambling today at a casino near to work…. this thing digs really deper than i thought i have no idea how to stop bingeing my money away …. the only postive  thing is that i didnt spend my entire salary…but i feel depressed and disgusted again

[Rayman10]

Hanging in there ,
Gains are slow,
Eagerly awaiting Money at the end of the month ,
My performance in work has been not good but steady, Im holding it together most importantly .

Preparing to have to live much tighther for the next year, Sigh
LEts take it one day at a time

i know its just day 12, but i feel like i have achieved a lot in those days by keeping it together… couldnt have acheived it without your help
thank you

[Rayman10]

Started of the second week working all day,
Much less urges to gamble
Trying to catch up with all the work piled up and getting back into things i loved doing, Music movies, Checking in on freinds,

PAy day is comming this month end.
Looking foward to start saving once again.

The most important thing ive done this entire week was not gambling, thats all we need to do..not gamble

[Rayman10]

proud to say ive made it one week and i feel slightly better with each passing moment,
mental gains are slow but worth it

[Rayman10]

Barely survived… how on earth do people go through this :(… trying to keep my head up and above water..
looking foward to my 1 week free

[Rayman10]

Barely survived… how on earth do people go through this :(… trying to keep my head up and above water..
looking foward to my 1 week free

[Rayman10]

ANother day where i am drained of energy, The hardest week is definitely the first.
I didnt think much of gambling today…
However still very low on energy, mainly due to low qulity sleep.
I see a lot of people post that they are problem gamblers , and they quit and all it takes is one small bet and thats it …..
its amazing how we cant ever become functional recreational gamblers … SOmething really different happens in our mind when we gamble ….
Keep fighting the good fight my freinds and stay away from The enemy…
keep your freinds close but your enemy totally out of site and buried ….
Keep those stress levels low… and most of all keep helping yourselves and others hold on to their wellbeing

[Rayman10]

I once heard a problem gambler told me , if he won 4000 in 1 hour, its not satifying for him… he hasnt got that fix yet , hed consider a good day if he was 60 quid down and spent the entire day playing , Now thats scary .

Then there is some people that dont spend a lot of hours daily on gambling…but during their binge they literally ruin themselves… Gambling huge amounts on one spin…. ruining there entire savings in just a couple nights….. And it all stems from the fact that they cant take losses. 

we must rewire our minds to be satisfied with small adreanline rushes…HEnce the longer we lay the beast the sleep..the weaker he becomes

[Rayman10]

these freinds of my mine will understand if i say no, theyre cool guys… But for now im a bit ashamed to tell them the full extent of things, I was always a responsible person in the group… I

im really giving myself a chance to stop for good ,,, Im am not gonna mess up after today ( easier said than done )… 

Im trying to convince my mind as well To HAve no self Doubt about quitting … I find that when fear creeps in about doing it again ( i think i give my addiction the edge over my self control ) … 

There a lot of pwerful tools to prevent us from gambling, but none more powerful than training the mind the properly execute

[Rayman10]

4 days since my relapse, Still replaying the losses, Was able to perform decent in work today after blocking out the losses, I put everything in place financially for the next month or so ( food,bills, )… was suppose to buy a new tv this week ( CANT) Dealing with the temptations to play again very strictly – Everytime gambling comes on my mind… I associate it with sickness and negativity… the good part of my brian keeps telling myself its never okay to play.. Whereas the addiction part of my brain  will tell me – “Play smart, Youd win and walk and be happy in life ” ( A big fat lie and i see you). Not falling for it today Not falling for it again

[Rayman10]

Terrible sleep last night, went to bed a bit early couldnt sleep , kept replaying the nightmare…..

Performed decent in work today, kinda hid from anything hard.

Wanted to use my credit card to have a gamble today.. however resisted easily …. ..
These last three days were really surreal and painful
Look foward ot making it to day 4

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