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Headed into day 13 with a slightly more optimistic outlook

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Day 12 down. Had planned to treat myself to a dinner out but someone forgot to put money in my account so I am stuck at home alone with no cash, no gas and four cigarettes, not a happy girl. And I got a ticket today for out of date tags in the borrowed truck I’m driving.. I think to myself jeez at least gambling had some ups every now an again! But I know that’s just the CG in me talking

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So proud of you! I too have felt really down the last couple of days, glad you made it through! I will make this work!

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Thanks Chip for the comment. Tonight I am feeling disconnected, depressed, sad, angry, overwhelmed and alone! I made it through today without gambling and I will NOT gamble tomorrow. I know my fellow CG’s are supportive it’s just been a heck of a ride the last two weeks. I need a good happy moment on this horrible roller coaster that I have been riding of late. I known this is all a mess of my own making but I just can’t get ahold of my emotions tonight. Think I’ll go to bed and hope for a brighter day tomorrow. No need to respond, I’m ok really, just needed to vent.
I will make this work!

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I hope the FB games are ok, lol. I play words and scramble with friends. I also play a lot of solitare. Congratulations on not gambling the $70, I know that feeling. Each small step is a victory!
I will make this work!

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I would be saddened if you do. Know that the site doesn’t just help in your recovery you help others in their recovery as well. I wish you the best whatever you decide but will miss hearing from you.

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Here goes day 11, I will NOT gamble todayI will make this work!

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Day 10 down. The kids are with the ex and Lee is out of town, came home to an empty house. The ex brought half my child support. I paid a bill, put a little gas in the truck I’m driving, bought cigarettes and a mt. Dew so I could be sure not to have any cash on hand tonight when I knew I’d be on my own. So even though I’m bored I made sure I couldn’t gamble. Probably go to be early. This would have been the time 11 days ago when I couldn’t wait to get to the casino, so I suppose that’s something. I will make this work!

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Congrats on 26 days. I’m on day 10 and I understand that for some 26 or 10 may not seem like a lot but for us it’s a big big deal. Keep moving forward
Gina
I will make this work!

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Betty, thanks for the advice. I’m sure my outlook will be better tomorrow. Just a bad day. On the upside thank God I didn’t have any money and day 9 is in the bag.
I will make this work!

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I was also really excited about the first GA meeting. I wanted a sponsor that was close enough to call and meet with when I am feeling down, like today, I have support from the ex and some of the few friends I have told but they aren’t CG’s so while I’m grateful for the support they don’t really get it. Having a bit of a pitty party right now, but I will have transportation after tomorrow so I’ll go to the GA meeting next Tuesday if I can get someone to pinch hit for me with the kids. I am still focused and driven though because no matter how sorry I feel for myself today it’s not as bad as gambling makes me feel.
@ Razz- thanks for the words of encouragement I needed them. I will make this work!

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Down today, just a little raw but no money and wouldnt gamble if I had any. Would like to crawl in bed and zone out for a couple days though

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Today they Repo’d my car. Happy New Year. I knew it was coming but it still makes me sad. It is a tangeble consequences of my actions.
I will make this work!

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I am not enabling or condoning what you did but I do wanna tell you it’s ok. No one said this would be easy and the reason you will find support here is because I know exactly how easy it would be for me to make one slip and be exactly where you are and I know how it would make me feel if I did. So big hugs, put on your big girl panties and start again. We didn’t become who we are by going to the casino one time, it was a process, recovery is the same. I too am so proud of you for having to courage to come back here and admit what happened. It shows that you are still fighting! Prayers your way.
I will make this work!

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Happy New Year Chub, Hetty and Carol. Here is to a new gamble free year!
I will make this work!

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