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Haven’t gambled in a couple weeks. I sure wish it was longer. I need to get out of this hole. Well one day at a time.

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I’ve been having a very hard time getting my mind right. I’m not looking to gamble, but my **** is so emotionless. I feel like I’m stuck with this problem, and I will always have this problem, thus I will never be ok. I really want to come at everyday positive right now, but I don’t see how.

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I made it through the weekend without any urges. I’ve been contemplating a lot of things in my life recently. Mostly thinking of where gambling has taken my life. Is it to late to make things right? I know it’s not, but sometimes it feels like it is.

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Just typing to keep not gambling fresh in my head. Today I will not place a bet. Had a couple rough **** swings, but time heals
Bryan

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Last night was a little rough for me. Not with urges to play poker, but I was *****. It wasn’t fair to my family that I let a **** that probably stems from me losing money affect their night. It wasn’t anything terrible, but still not necessary. As for today, I will not gamble. I will strive to have a better day than yesterday.
Bryan

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Today is 1 week. There have been ***** where that is an accomplishment. Right now it isn’t as much. My schedule doesn’t allow me to gamble everyday. I would typically play twice a week. The thing is today I don’t want to gamble. Everytime I type here is a reminder gambling hurt me, and won’t help me. This path will help me.
Bryan

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Monday. New week. Starting my week strong. I’m not gambling today. I’m going to stay positive. I’m going to eat right, and excersise a little. Thoughts of extra debt are haunting me a bit, but the only thing I can do is accept. No need to waste energy fighting the truth. I will stay on track. Slow and steady
This week I will move forward to improve my life.
Bryan

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This is a real thing that happens Luna. It has happened to me many ***** over. Sick, right? Well in a way we are always sick, and dangerously sick when we are gambling.
When I look back those ***** don’t seem real. But it is posts like yours that remind me they are real, and they will happen again. Thank you for posting your experience. It is a reminder to all of us that this is our life when gambling. Be strong, and fight. You can do it.
Bryan

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Happy Sunday everyone. I don’t really have any new updates, but I’d like to keep my recovery fresh in my mind. I am not going to gamble today. I’m going to enjoy my family, and concentrate on positives in my life.
Bryan

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Today is another day. I had rough moments of frustration last night. I guess it it expected.
I figure it’s natural. The thing is, this time I’m not going to focus on negatives. I’ve wasted to much time being negative. I’m going to do what I can to have a great weekend. I hope you guys do as well. Be strong.
Bryan

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Well it’s day 3 after my blow up. I’m hoping its my final blow up, but I will never know. Anyway today I will not place a bet. It will not help me. I dug a whole with gambling that has given me many problems. Gambling won’t fix them.
Good news is I do have other things in my life to be thankful for. Those are the things I’m focussing on today.
Bryan

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Thanks Harry. I’m preparing for my ups and downs, but I’m choosing to focus on a better future. Instead of thinking about poker and quick money. I’m thinking about a long process of saving, paying debt, and thinking about a retirement someday. No matter what I try to talk myself into, I can’t have any of it with poker. In fact, I probably can’t have anything at all with poker.
So today I choose to look at the big picture. Today I will accept the damage I’ve done, and look at a future I can still have.
Bryan

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Thanks for response bettie. Good to see you are on the right track. Keep it up

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Larry keep up the good work.

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You are about 4 or 5 weeks ahead of me in gamble free days. I just wanted to thank you because watching your days add up helped me comprehend one day at a  time

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