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#day49 or 1 month and 18 days since last gamble.

I am very good with the urge…have feeling some urges but not something out of control.

Not I am terrified not to mess up with what I have achieved so far so Will not do anything to screw up.

I like the peacefull.

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So today is… #1month of gambling free.

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so, 19.01.2024 and still keep it on. #Nobets

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I forgot to say that this is … #day14.

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Thank you!

It is very hard but now I am determined not to do any mistake.

Hope to chance something about going to gym and that would be kind of all.

It could be simple if we really really want it. And I really really want to get rid of these disease…

Hope to do it and keep on doing this.

I was listening to an actor who was also addicted, mentioning that the gambling is always keep on telling lies about the potential next spin which could get you out of trouble…

Best of luck to you too.

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Hello,

Yes, I am trying to change the whole thing regarding this disease.

Thinking how it all appeared from over 25-28 years ago and that I was addicted in one way or another all this time…

This is the very first time when I am dead serious about changing something about gambling…

Keep all posted and hope all to be good.

#day9gamblingfree.
#icandoit

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#day3

Hi Kin,

It is complicated…

Fortunately, did not deposit any other money since 26.

Not so fortunately, yesterday received a bonus- did not deposit anything, which, of course I have played and lost it (of course as it had big wager).

I will block all the emails cu bets so that I will not be tempted anymore.

Having a look yesterday while wagering the bonus at all the streamers loosing their money while advicing not to play because this is what is happening…and still 2-3000 people are wathcing live, discussing, bragiing with the winning or complaining about the losses…

Do not know what is happening…

However, I am looking forward for 2024 to start and hope everything to change on these…

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I was just thinking how it all started …

I was sincer I was about 12-13 Yrs old when in our villange slot machines were brought and of course that was the main fun for everyone. Including adults, teenegers and kids.

That was were we were going all the time in the evening to play. but of course we had no big amounts of money so it was fun.

In the high scholl it was nothing serious and later when was moving to the faculty, form time to time some serious sport bets when I had the money…

After the faculty I had some big bets also won, some lost… but did not play on slots.

The crash happened when I have discovered the slot machines, 3-4 years ago… that was the total damage… absolutely total damage.

Gives you that continuous sensation, pumping adrenaline and hope or what the hell is that…. and you all the time end up lossing, I know that…

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So, this is JUST the #day2.

Yesterday was horrible in the morning, the same feelings you were all aware …

I was thinking that except stealing and borrowing money from known people/my parents/etc, I have done everything…. I just did not get to that point where I lied or smth… was not needed.

Hope to all end now.

I am thinking about goint to Gamnblers Anonymous from my town… Still ashamed of what I have done and what this betting thing is doing to me..

Must get back to sport, focus on kids, fammily, work,

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All god so far. Just that I am not progressing with my diet. Except that all is good, keeping up with my plan.

Hope to find you all with good news.

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So, on 17.07.2023 1 month since last gamble and -10 kg down.

I am doing good. 🙂

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This is what is am doing. I am confident this time I have what I need to go through.

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Keep it up, do not let go any minutes.

It is very good that you the support of your wife.

Maybe some times is better to let go of all the money to other people… Did you try this?

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Hi Craig,

I must admit I am not into big words, this why I am/was using that kind or wording.

Fortunately, since last vist here I have managed to do something.

First I have started a new diet so I have lost around 9 kilos, not that I was BIG BIG need, but for my health, I will keep doing this untill I will be fully fit- as I consider. This helps me a lot.

Second, I started doing something with my money. Did a credit, put it into a deposit with my mom and me and all my money now go into returning the loan and paying the invoices. Fortunately, nothing to repay any debt from ganbling or betting.

Now I am without any bets since 17.06.2023 so I am doing better. I am confident will keep it up.

Best regards to all!

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Hi Charles,

Honestly, close to nothing.

I was just wiring all the money to parents or later to wife, of course, not telling them why or how- I have done that before, this is how I managed not to have damages of be in high debt…

For the moment I am thinking of a strategy such as making a loan, wiring all the money to parents/wife and then paying the loan directly from my wage.

Have no other clues for the moment…

I am just refusing to accept that gambling is stronger… hope not to have another lesson.

Few months ago, when I was around 50-60 days with any bets, I entered a casino just to go to the toilet and did not gamble a single penny… I was so proud 🙂

We will see…

#day10 GF.

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