Hi, Velvet. It’s been a while since my last post so I thought I’d give an update.
For starters, I got the dog back in September. It was a difficult decision and felt enormous guilt before doing it, but ultimately, I had to do it for myself and my well-being. I messaged him on his 1st year of sobriety in November and he didn’t even read the message.
As for my ex, he recently launched his new girlfriend on social media. This is a different girl than the one he was previously seen with. I don’t completely understand why he had to remove most of my friends before he did it but still left a couple so it did get back to me. I guess my rusty gut can still be right throughout all this time.
I just feel so much pain and feel disposable. All my friends say that he isn’t doing his internal work that’s why he’s doing this, but none of us really know that for sure. He has never been single for long and I half expected it to happen, but I was hoping that what he went through rocked him enough to start looking within and change his patterns. It just pains me so much that there’s really no more chance for us. We were supposed to be married only in April and the year hasn’t even ended and he’s on to a new one. Just completely devastated now.